I just left a post on the "another day in the neighborhood" post---but, thought I would post here too!
I haven't been lately b/c I have been experiencing pain in my neck and right arm (feels like the blood pressure cuff when it's really tight---all of the time), and it hurts when I am on the computer---so, I haven't been on a lot lately....
I FINALLY received the test results of my cervical MRI I had LAST week (9 days ago)! I have a HERNIATED DISC in my neck! Which disc? Good question---the automated system doesn't specify!
So, I made an appt. to see the PA at my MDs office---b/c I still have pain---and I can't get in to see the MD until late march!
I mean--I want to know NEXT! HELLO!
So, this all brings out all of this anticipatory/health anxiety that I usually get---"what if I need surgery" "I am scared of surgery" "I hear surgery doesn't help many people" "I hear surgery helps a lot of people" "I am scared" "why is this happening" "what if it's more than just a disc thing"?
SIGH_-----hate this! I am working on not letting it get to me--trying to breath and visualize peace, and calm...but, the pain is still there--and I get scared!
The good thing that comes out of all of this is that FOR NINE MONTHS (sorry I have to scream for a minute)---I HAVE BEEN TELLING PEOPLE about THIS PAIN--AND THEY THINK I AM 'CRAZY'!!! They came looking at my mid-back (even though I told them I had neck pain)---and after all of the tests, all of the drugs.....THERE IS A REASON WHY I HAVE PAIN!
I kept telling my primary MD---"I am anxious b/c I am in PAIN. I am not in pain b/c I am ANXIOUS".....he dismissed me! Well, look--there is something! I know my body---it tells me things! I don't know what those things are---but HELLO!?
SIGH! So, that is it in a nutshell---OH, what fun!