Hi Ed...I have severe Crohn's Disease & in '05 was diagnosed w/ a rare eye cancer. Following 6mos. of topical (thankfully!) chemo, I went into another hospital for what was supposed to be a 'temporary' ileostomy'...not to be, it's permanent. Approx. 10yrs. ago my anxiety/panic became overwhelming. I called my therapist & told her that if I couldn't 'get it together' that I would lose my job. I had been taking Xanax (alprazolam) for a few yrs. at this point & following my call, she prescribed Klonipin (clonazepam). I believe that it saved my job & my life. I've been on these drugs for years & had the same fears that you mentioned. My therapist & psychiatrist are both always telling me that I should be taking more of the drugs. The highest dosage of Klonipin that I take is 3mg. daily & I take up to 1.5 mg. Xanax, as needed. The Xanax wears off quickly & tends to leave me w/ a hangover type feeling so I use it mainly for help w/ falling asleep & when I feel that a panic attack is coming on. I was afraid that if I took too much of these drugs then the therapist would take me off, for abusing them. She's assured me, like yourself, that I take such a small dosage that I don't need to worry. Also, she told me that many people take these drugs for life. I also suffer from depression & have tried 14 different anti-depressants...while several made me feel like my old self again, I physically can't handle any of them. This is my first visit to this thread & I'm hoping to find people who've overcome anxiety/panic using holistic treatments such as accupuncture,, yoga, meditation. I'm currently on disability & therefore, can't afford to try many options but still want to know if people have beat this debilitating illness. Lastly, 20/20 did a story about
people dying or suffering from permanent side-effects from the use of Xanax...I'm not worried because all the people were using EXTREMELY high dosages such as 15/20mg. plus other substances...no comparisonto our situation. Lastly, I was a heavy drug user/drinker in my late teens/early 20's & I'm able to handle these drugs without becoming addicted. Well, that's my story...thanks for listening & hopefully, we'll both find the mental freedom that we're seeking!
25+ yrs. Crohn's Disease Sufferer (diagnosed in '84); 2yr. Ostomate (ileostomy)
2yr. Remission for Conjunctival Malignant Melanoma
Ciprofloxacin as needed; Children's Vitamin/B-12 Supplement; Xanax as needed; Clonazepam 3x daily; Levothyroxin for Hypothyroidism
Several Eye meds used to help prevent further damage resulting from treatment for eye cancer
(former 6-MP/Remicade user - ceased due to cancer diagnosis)
Too many former drugs to name. Resection-'91, Sub-total Colectomy-'93, Rectal Abcess Excision-'01, Ileostomy-'06 (several other unrelated surgeries)