lol I was watching a documentary on the National Geographic channel on the Vietnam War so it took me forever to list those because I kept getting lost in it! I love the Vietnam War so... anyways, wow, your guys babling thing is rubbing off on me! Just kidding!
Umm... When I wake up, if I think about
getting on the buss and going to school, I get sick from anxiety. I have to just get up and turn the music on and I CANNOT think about
the rest of the day. If I think about
school once, well lets not go there... anytime I start to think about
all the work I have to do, like homework that sort of thing, I get super upset. If I think about
report cards, grades, anything like that... If I think ahead to when Im going to FL in the summer I get anxiety because I cant wake up that early to go, I cant ride in a parked car down there for 8 hours, I cant be away from home, and while Im down there I dont get any sleep so that adds. Plus, I had a very bad experience with getting sick to my stomach there last year... it was horrible so Im dreading this year really bad already.
Hmm... When I think about
going something I get super anxious. I cant spend the night at friends it freaks me out. I have to sleep in my own bed where I feel safe. I get super anxious if I was supposed to do something and I didnt, especially for school. If I forget anything I get all nervous. Anytime I start thinking about
how I should tell someone I get all shaky and stuff. Just the thought of speaking up scares me so much. Mmm... Time. I am a huge time person. I always have to know what time it is. How long I have til something. Everything. Time makes me edgy, especially when I feel rushed.
I will have to think on some other things. Some things trigger my anxiety and I dont even realize it. but the thing thats the worst is simply thinking. Thinking about
all of these things is enough to cause great anxiety so, obviously actually experiencing any of this is going to be very bad on my anxiety. I will add if I think of something else! Thank you guys for being interested! I feel so loved!
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."