Hello and welcome to HealingWell. I am so glad you found us. Many people do not want to accept their dx and it is not uncommon for people with a Bi-polar disorder to quit taking their meds when they feel better as they rationalize they don't need them Thus the circle you appear to be in.
Have you considered a second opinion from another Pdoc if you are concerned about the accuracy of your dx? It never hurts to seek out another opinion.
We also have forums on depression and bipolar if you want to browse through them you may find some comfort from the members posts.
Again a warm welcome and please stay with us.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic ~ Crohn's
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