Hey, I actually wanted to thank you for last night. We had a lot of fun at first and then we got to the serious stuff. I just wanted to let you know that I was drentched in tears with everything that you said. I was sad at first because I thought about
what you were saying and how we both go through it. But, I was happy at the same time. I felt free. I felt like for once someone truly knew the exact feelings I have everyday. All those things you were saying, I have cried myself to sleep countless nights thinking about
all of that. It really hit me hard that what I feel is so real.
I was up really late and freaked out because I needed to be in bed and I hadnt doen anything yet so....I had to rush and get my school stuff ready, take my medicine, and everything else I have to do before I go to bed. All the time your chat was replaying over and over again in my head. I didnt go to bed until after 12. I didnt get much sleep and I didnt think I was going to go to school because I didnt feel good.
Surprisingly, I didnt feel that bad this morning. Thank God for my medicine!!!! I actually get to sleep so I was able to work with 5 hours of sleep. I had a bad morning, but 2 pd... I told my teacher all about last night!!! I told her how I felt and how it affected me. She knew about my anxiety and panic but we really havent discussed it in detail. But, I talked to her for like 2 hours! We both asked questions and it was really good! I feel reassured now because I talked to her more openly and I also always wondered if what I was saying to her scared her, her statement was, "No, its part of life." So, I felt really good about it. She said baby-steps and reassured me I would make it and we would work on it together. I feel like I can tell her more now until I have finally told her my whole story.
Thanks so much for last night! You helped me more than you know! If you want to chat let me know. I know Baby T isnt up to it tonight so... just let me know. And thanks again for everything!
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."