Umm... (((MMMNAVY))) :/ Hmm...you lost me.
Pan, you kind of scare me when you say I should watch who I
open up to... That makes me think alot. But, I figure
opening up on here isnt going to matter much... No one on here knows me in real life or whatever so.. and if anyone wants to talk about
me thats fine, I enjoy being the center of attention! lol
Its hard with the normal school stuff and in a few months I am going to be a senior. I will be filling stuff out for college and everything ya know. That scares me because I have no idea what to do... School gives me structure, I dont know what to do when its over. I have always wanted to be a doctor, up until a couple weeks ago. I dont feel like I could handle the stress of getting there. Although, I totally have the potential and brains to be a great surgeon!! But, I want to stay in my home town. I am thinking I want to be a teacher, but I cant be sure. Whatever I do with my life, I want to be helping others and making a difference.
Im struggling so much. I am trying to be me, but I cant be me until people know what I am going through. It makes me feel alone around people. I dont care if people talk about
me or arent my friend, that just means they are missing out on alot!! I just want ot be me, whoever that is! And you already know a secret as to who I am...if you know what I am talking about
.... we talked about
it in chat...but since I just told you my other secret, think about
it. Think about
how that affects my other feelings of who I am. I really hope you know what I am talking about
. I cant say it on here.... But, I told you I struggled with my "personal" feelings and now I struggle even more because I cant figure out if it is just who I am or if the rape thing plays a role.
I know that hard to understand. But, if you would like you can email me and I will explain sinc eI cant say it on here. Thanks! Love ya!
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."