I am really sorry you are going through a rough period. I quite understand what you are undergoing. I was 30....17 years ago when this thing hit me full blown. I was scared. My world suddenly seemed upside down and at times it literally was. I remember walking across the livingroom to the bathroom to shower and my reality was that I was walking horizontal to the floor. At this period I was staying with a church family because I could not be alone. They lived closeby so I would only go to my home to shower. I even had to have someone in the bathroom with me and the shower curtain
The awful thoughts would never go away and they were all negative. Everything seemed unreal. It was like one looooong nightmare that would never end.
When I get these thoughts that are stuck on replay I try to recite some verse, memory gem, sing/hum a song, etc to stop the thoughts and it helps sometimes. Listening to some soothing music helps too. Practise deep breathing for relaxation. You can google "relaxation techniques" and you might come up with something.
Hope you feel some normalcy soon.
Clinical depression, Panic disorder, GERD, Sciatica
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