Thanks Cass. I have to give my speech tomorrow. I have only written the 3 body paragrahs... I did those yesterday, I am trying to do the intro and conclusion.... I am just going to wing it and hope for the best. Thats all I can do... =]
Ok, wow, I can not type... I must tell you guys what happened today!!!!
I went to the doctor and I asked my mom if I could see the doctor by myself. She came with me and I told her not too. She said she had to or something and I told her I was old enough to talk for myself. She told me I had to talk to the doctor and I told her I refused to. Finally after arguing she went back to the waiting room. I felt bad for "kicking" her out, but I was really proud of myself! I actualy felt better after I did that. The doc walked in and I was able to talk to him all by myself! I asked him if he could help with my anxiety.
He gave he hydroxyzine (Atarax (sp?))... I have actually never heard of it.. but it is like an antihistamine, but its a mild anxiety med... =] The only thing that seemed strange to me is that is CAUSES sedation. I can see drowsiness as being a "side-effect", but it is actually the job of the med! Let me tell you, it works! I am really sleepy and drowsy...and I am a bit off-balance...! But, if it helps my anxiety, I dont care. He said if it didnt help we would try something else.
When I got outside my mom looked at my prescript
ions and she seen it and asked about
it and I told her it was for anxiety... LOL She asked me what that was! lol =] So, I had to explain to her what anxiety was. She didnt understand. I tried explaining to her about
school and everything. She wasnt too understanding, but I figured she would get over it.... I know that sounds mean, but I am roud that I finally did something!!!!
ALL of YOU have told me since I joined that I needed to talk to a doc and I was never able too... BUT I DID!!! And so I am so very proud of myself!!! =]
Well, I have to get my speech finished and practice it so that maybe it will be ok tomorrow. I am actually not all that worried about
it now... its weird. I just figure I am so tired I just want to wing it and get it over with..
Well, thank you all for everything! Have a Great Day!
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word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."