Well, folks, after just a couple of okay days, my health anxiety is skyrocketing again.
What started my encounters with anxiety and panic was an episode of shortness of breath while driving about three years ago. It felt like my throat was closing up. In trying to figure it out while hustling to the nearest hospital (I was on an interstate, out of town, at the time - scary!), the only thing I could come up with was a possible unexpected allergy to some walnuts I'd just eaten. Mind you, I've eaten them all my life with no difficulty. Even these (from McDonald's), I'd had before.
Long story short, I've spent the past three years afraid of any indication that I was having trouble breathing, getting short of breath, or feeling throat tightening. Even though an ENT has recently diagnosed acid reflux of the throat, an accidentally unsupportive conversation with my boyfriend yesterday has made me TERRIFIED that I'll stop breathing somehow.
So anyhow, I realize that I am ALWAYS in this extremely highly vigilant state, monitoring my every breath or throat sensation, and it's exhausting me.
Anyone else dealing with similar issues, like extra vigilance about something that triggers your anxiety? I don't know how I'll find the energy to keep functioning.