I'm sorry that you're going through such rough feelings right now. I don't think any of us knows why anxiety will all of a sudden strike out of the blue. For me, the first panic attack occurred for no apparent reason while I was travelling across state. In light of your post, I look back at that as like having had a car wreck at that instant, rather than a panic attack. What I mean is, when there don't seem to be any visible causes, anxiety basically is like having some life-changing accident happen without warning. There probably isn't anything you could have done differently to prevent it, or to protect yourself. All we can do once it does strike is try to recover and rehabilitate the way someone physically injured in an accident would. That means giving ourselves lots of patience and time, and realizing that we're doing the best we can, even if it doesn't feel like enough.
You're going to get through this. All you can do is take it a tiny bit at a time and recognize and applaud those baby steps that get you closer to how you really want to feel about your life.
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I was fine for years and wham. One of the first questions I asked my therapist with huge tears running down my face was "Why Me?' He looked me straight in the eye and said "Why Not You?"
Whao, I shut up and thought, he is right, I am not special, I can come down with any disorder but never did I dream I would be sitting here 28 years later still dealing with it.
You will get better and have many many good days, then the bumps in the road happen but you will get over those bumps because you want to.
Stick with us and we will help you. Bless you.
Here's the thing 'Cosmo girl'...you're still alive..you are still surrounded by all the beautiful things that you have mentioned in your post..nothing has really changed except that you got a big fright - as we do when panic attacks set in.
You have sought help and got meds and what's more you have reached out for help here at HW where there are lots of us that have gone or going thru the same thing as you...you are very brave, well done!
Now for the next step, how about seeking some form of counselling..sometimes in our lives we have swept a couple of problems under the mat, thinking we would deal with them later or just brushed them aside at the time - not realising that our subconscious has been holding on to these unfinished pieces of biz, and over time they have been getting bigger and bigger...and that's when panic attacks jump and bite us when we are totally unaware..they surely are a wake up call!
Keep posting and let us know how you are getting on.
Good Morning Cosmo Girl,
How are you doing? I hope you will pop in and let us know as we care about you. A new day has....come :)HugsKitt
Dear Cosmo Girl.........
It is finally Friday............I hope your feeling better and we would love to see a post from you so if you feel like it talk to us whenever your ready.
Hi Cosmo Girl,
Yes, I asked myself that question about 11 years ago when I had my first anxiety attack. It has taken sometime, but I realize that my anxiety is a part of me, just like my personality. While I am fine and can function most of the time, anxiety is something that I have to deal with from time to time. I recently had an anxiety attack while being overseas in China which forced me to come home early, but instead of asking why did this happen to me, I ask, what can I learn from it? After much reflection, I have concluded that it is not a good idea for me to go overseas, because if I get an anxiety attack in a foreign land, it only exacerbates my anxiety.
As for yourself, I think that it's great that you can join a safe place (this forum) to share your struggles. However, in addition to the forum, if you haven't done so already, I would suggest that you talk to somebody you trust and will not judge you. Perhaps it is a close friend, maybe your pastor, or a close relative. I find that the direct person to person communication to be very therapeutic. As I said before, I returned home early from China just recently. Upon returning, I immediately contacted my friend who is also a counselor and shared my experience. He already knows that I am prone to anxiety, and after having talked about it a number of times, I am on my way to being healed.
This is my theory of why we have panic attacks.
We have a build up of stress that been building up over time. The only way for our body to release that stress is through a full blown panic attack.
Most people have events that trigger a panic attack, doing certain things or going to certain places makes them and causes them to have another panic attack.
Your in town and have a panic attack for the first time? What if I go to town again and have another one ?
So you tend to stay away from areas where you had your first panic attack.
Most people think they will get another and it ends up being psychological so it ends up running your life!
Before you had your panic attack you could do anything go anywhere? But because your scared to have another one its ruining your life.
A panic attack feels scary but after you’ve had a few your still alive J