It's been a few weeks since I wrote. I'm EMPLOYED. Remember my transcription job was being eliminated. Well, the weekend prior to the day I was supposed to get my 60 day notice, one of the file clerks up and just quit. I got her job. I was with the Director of the department when she found this other employee's badge with a note saying "I Quit". The Director turned to me and we were both stunned but the Director immediately said to me "God opened that door". I took the job and have been busy learning it. It's the right hours and still at the hospital so I keep all my benefits and my vacation time and stuff. Just a different job. The only downer is I have to be up at 3:45 A.M. (yes that's the middle of the night to me) as I have to be at work by 5 am. The only other downer is my pay is decreasing so I will have to somehow make up the extra money each month to pay the bills. I've been spending all my spare time looking for something part-time afternoons. We'll see. But, I had to share my good news. My anxiety has been a lot higher as the pressure is on (me putting it on myself I should say) to do the job perfect even though I am still learning. I've discovered I'm way too hard on myself. Which is a symptom of anxiety as well. My doctor upped my Xanax to 4 a day.
Thou shalt smile and have a nice day. It frustrates those who have other plans for thee.
Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002.
Medications: Allegra, Zantac, Ultram PRN, Xanax, Darvocet, Ursodiol.