I just wanted to share that for the first time in about three months, I woke up this morning feeling happy and good. It's been so long since I've felt that way, and it's a real relief, even if it's only brief. I actually felt "like myself" for a couple of hours.
Now my throat tightness is coming back a little, and that alwyas frightens me, but I can still look back and see how much better I feel than I did even one week ago. I think my reflux meds are working to suppress most of the throat symptoms, and we've upped my Paxil a little. That's seemed to help so far.
I have noticed, though, that the longer I go without an actual anxiety attack or shortness of breath episode, the MORE afraid I am of having them. I guess that's probably normal, but I don't want this to turn into a phobia, like a couple of my other fears have, because my phobias are really limiting me.
I do have a new book on health anxiety arriving in the mail today. Since that's the direction my fears have gone lately, I want to understand it better. I'll let you all know if the book's any good.
I'm so glad I have you all to share things with.