I have never posted in this forum, I have fibromyalgia and at first was thought to have lupus.
I decided to check this out. I have been on numerous anti-depressants over the years, Paxil, Wellbrutrin, Lexapro and now I am on Effexor.
I just went to see my psychiatrist and she thinks I have been depressed and have had anxiety attacks for a long time, but since my older sister was schizophrenic, it was never addressed and compared to her being in and out of institutions, my issues seemed minor. Let me say this, I loved my sister and she was my everything and only sibling, she was 8 years older than me, read to me, sang to me and when she wasn’t ill, was the most loving and kind person you could ever meet. She passed away 6 years ago and I still miss her constantly.
I know my sister’s behavior effected me, as I believe I have "learned fears" from her. She was terrified of lizards and from her I learned to be terrified too, which sadly I have handed down this fear to my daughter and grand daughter.
I was terrified of dead people, you name it. Some of these phobias I still have, and I am constantly worried about things that may never happen.
I am happily married, have one daughter, two teenaged grandchildren and I work full time in a law office.
It’s nice to share and not be judged.
Fibro,Arthritis, Hypertention, Depression, sleep apnea, IBS.