Hi Paulos, I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad. Insecurity can make everything worse..and I know what OCD is like..arghhh!!
It can be really tough tapering off meds and even if you do it slowly and sensibly with doc's help it can make things seem worse for a while. Be gentle with yourself and try and get us much support as you can from family and friends (and us of course!!). Please keep us up to date and let us know how we can help. Hang in ther Paulos, and welcome back.
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I am so sorry your having a tough time and of course I remember you. You have been working hard to get on the right meds. May I ask why your Pdoc took you off Lamictal? I so understand the insercurity issues and the changing of meds is an anxiety increaser for me. Journaling is a good idea. Here are some journaling tips.
1.Set your journal where you will see it everyday, i.e., on your nightstand, at your desk, where you have coffee. This will help to remind you to journal.
2.Part of keeping a journal, is not skipping a day, a week, and even months.
3.Writing a word, sentences, or paragraphs, journaling whatever you have to say that day is just the right amount to write.
4.Journal whatever is important for you to write about right then and there. I've journaled about a fabulous soup I ate, my concerns about a friendship, my dreams for the future.
5.Keeping your journal private. That can mean setting boundaries with those in your home, it may mean hiding it, or locking it away. You will have to make an individual decision about what that means to you.
6.Re-read your journal or not. Rarely do I re-read my journals. Some people always read what they have written. Again it is a personal choice.
7.Remember to use your journal for your benefit and well being, what ever that means to you. Keeping a journal is a powerful tool that you can give to yourself everyday. Plus, this creates time for you every day.
I wish you peace and please keep posting.Gentle Hugs to you,