Dear Sweet Meg,
You have your cry and I agree you have a right to your feelings. It is hard to just let go of the labeling as you have worked so hard and to have someone say these comments and insiuate you are only looking for meds is a low blow.
I have a tendency to easily become dependent on a med or other things and my Pdoc knows this. She helped me get off Vicodin as well as decrease my usuage of Valium which was good. However, I may ask to try a certain med and she will make a comment that I should not use that drug due to my tendency toward addictions. I get really angry and leave her office feeling like you did. Of course I immediately buy into her comments until I get home and my husband talks it through with me.
I resent having my requests shot down because she thinks I may become "addicted'. She makes me feel like I am some weak, spineless person.
But I am not and neither are you, we are just humans with feelings and learning to deal with the comments of others is difficult. In your case it was crushing to you. I am so happy your wrote the letter to the clinic. Let your feelings out and the tears do help. :)
We are your rock and you can come and find us right here waiting for you. We believe in you and know what a wonderful person you are.
Hugs and prayers to you
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~