geezzz don't even know where to start .........ok first off I was reading HW months before I got enough courage to join . Then it took me along time before I posted , don't post much because I am really shy and afraid that I would ask a question and nobody would answer . Well everyone here is so great !!! Had some chances to go to the chat room and really enjoyed it . Was really surprised at all the young ppl in there that are suffering from anxiety , panic attacks , depression. My heart just breaks for them . And to find out their parents do not understand , they are crying out for help , they don't even have parents to understand , just want to take them in my arms and tell them I am here for you .
OK here is where I blew it . After getting off HW I went to my old forum , been on it for over a year , never posted much , was mostly ignored . ( should have listened to myself when I told myself to turn off computer and go to bed ) but nooooo I had to just check in . I know we don't have all the answers to everyone , but I also know that the Mods. here answer what they can ( always here for everyone ) when they can't help their is always a hand offered . They will pick you up , or give you resources where you can get your answers .
ok I am rambling , Wellll kinda had a wild hair , and posted a message to the Mods , asking if anyone of them suffered from anxiety or panic , depresion . Went on to say anytime I see a Mod. in this room is because someone said something wrong or the had to edit the post due to "chat room talk ect ) Well to say the least they were very offended .
Now I have been suspended from the forum : reason : dont like rules !!
I am only telling you this because I tell you all more than I tell anyone else in this world , yes I got my feelings hurt , and I feel really bad . But I wouldn't even say "boo ' to a ghost .
thanks for listening to my rants , hope you all don't think badly of me . I guess I just asked the wrong question . I love the Mods here , I know you are giving up your time and not getting paid to be here , you all do it because you are very caring and going through all this yourselfs and the members here are also so special . You have all helped me more then you will ever know !!
You can only change what you can control , you can't change what you can't control .