HI I am quietpain, or Joann in "real life." I have a variant of atypical bipolar, severe major deppression. generalized aniety disorder, complex PTSD, and psychotic features resembling schizoaffective disorder (but never being stable I cannot be diagnosed as such even though I have psychotic features regarless of the antipsychotics used.) I lsot my side vision due to taking risperdal and developing a prolactnoma. Finally I have hypothyroidism. I also have a problem with uterine fibroids and chronic fainting spells (I just collapse and while I am out my body shakes violently.) Right now because of the fainting I also have a broken ankle.
I awas first hospitalized at 13, but depression and halucinations started at about 5 or 6. I am both a rape survivor and spent about 3 months were I was connected with a drug runner who abused me, as did his "friends." The abuse was verbal, physical, & sexual. I was burnt, tied up gang raped and as well other things only we know about (trhey are too disgusting to talk about. I was lucky that they let me go becuase they thought I was crazy. I couldn't leave without permisssion. He even took me to my parents. and kept coming to the house saying that something was wrong and that he though I was going to kill myself. I tried to and then they put me away for four months. At 14 I had my first baby. At 16 still finished high school teo years early. My IQ, as tested in the hospital, is 153 so I was involved in a special program and did well throughout the whole nightmare. In my third year of college, I developed into the most severe point in my illness and spent the next 4 years in the hospitals more than out. The State tried to commmit me; my husband and father got lawyers and I had to move to live at my parents home since my mother didn't work and my father was a doctor. Then I had baby number two. Now I am 30. My kids are 16 and 8. I've been married for 15 years. I will never work. I will never not need meds.
vyvanse 100, parnate 120, librium 80-160, risperdal 6, zyprexa 10, haldol 2, lexapro 5, topamax 100, desryl 300, clonodine .02, synthroid .125, and benedryl 600