Well ... I managed to get my anxiety under control after heeding my brother-in-law's advice.
However, I "relapsed" today when my neighbors decided to have another outdoor party this evening (with a live band). I knew this was going to happen when a delivery truck backed up into their backyard this morning (to deliver folding tables again, I assume). I tried to stay calm throughout the day and distract my mind from the inevitable. Finally, I decided to get out of the house for awhile. It was around 4:30 pm, so I figured I had jumped to the wrong conclusion ... a party wasn't going to transpire after all. Imagine my surprise, though, when I got home around 6:15 pm to loud music. I immediately called the police, who arrived about a half hour later to squelch the noise. Problem resolved ... for tonight anyway. I should feel good, but I am dealing with anxiety instead. As much as I am doing my best to replace negative thoughts with reinforcing positive thoughts, I am losing the battle. "Am I going to have to call the police every other weekend to report a noise disturbance?" "Are the police eventually going to tire of my complaints (will they think I'm just a chronic whiner)?" "Are my neighbors going to be having another shindig next weekend?" My stomach is in knots ... I am unable to relax or concentrate. So I am writing this down in my journal for my next appointment with my psychologist on Tuesday.
Not only do these neighbors have these loud parties, but I have had to shoe some of their guests out of my driveway and away from my vehicles. They just wander down the street and stop wherever they feel like stopping. One time, I even had to stop a family from entering our backyard, thinking that the party was taking place at our house.
My wife did some research tonight and found out who owns the property (the offending neighbors are renters), and we are going to contact them about their tenants. Also, I am going to stop at the police department and find out what other recourses are available to me. I am kicking myself for not doing this after the last party.
On a side note, I have been putting off the possibility that I will need to be put on meds to help me deal with my anxiety. I'd rather not take meds again (I took Paxil about 5 years ago which helped to some degree), but I may have to face the realization that I cannot fully control my anxiety without meds.