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Date Joined May 2008
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   Posted 5/21/2008 11:12 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello everyone, I am new to this site. Im so glad I have found a place that has some activity going on.
I just wanted to introduce myself. I am 34 yr old and have been dealing with anxiety/panic disorder for about 12 years.  I started having small panic attacks after my daughter was born but at the time I had no clue what was happening so I had many large emergency room visit bills. Of course after a family doctor finally told me what was going on she gave me a script for xanax .25 mg and I only took them when I had one of these attacks. Worked great for about five years. I probably used less than two scripts of 30 pills over that time frame. 
Then my father passed away of a massive heart attack (er told us nothing was wrong with him and sent him home he died less than 10 hours later). My father was in his early forties. So of course they started back up again full force. I had no faith in the er docs when they would tell me my heart was fine it was just panic attacks but I did learn to deal with them pretty well up until about one year ago. I dont know what sparked the panic attacks that I have now they are stronger, symptoms are more intense its not just the out of nowhere rapid heart beat, clammy feeling and not being able to breath... Its all that with a rush of tingling and burning sensations throughout my body. I get waves of what feels like fire inside me with all the "regular" symptoms along with it.  I feel like every second of every day I have that nervous butterfly sensation that you get in your stomach, in my chest, in my throat... my heart skips beats and it is awful. I just want this to go away. My doctor has now put me on .5mg xanax once daily. It helps some but that fluttery nervous feeling is always here. I hate taking medication but I am to the point that something has got to give here. It is starting to control my life.
If anyone has any suggestions or comments please feel free....I just want to feel normal again.

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   Posted 5/21/2008 11:42 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi Cammie,

First of all, don't be afraid, things can and will get better. For me, and this is something you'll have to talk about with your doctor, I take 75mg of Zoloft at night, and 1800mg of Neurontin during the day for my anxiety. Your doctor will decide what is best for you. The point I'm trying to make is that medication is invented for a reason, and it helps me. I also have a prescription for Klonopin, but I don't take it unless I absolutely need it...certain situations, I'm not on a regular dose or anything because I don't want to risk dependence. BUT, the other meds I'm on are not risky for dependence, and they help me a lot. I have been bed-ridden with anxiety at times, so I know where you're coming from when you say you just want to feel normal. Well, sometimes we need help feeling normal...or at least feeling better.

Don't be afraid, there are wonderful doctors out there that can and will help you...go out and find one...discuss what you want to do or how you feel, and they should help you.

Think about our progress with the heart and how we save lives with medication and surgery nowadays with the progress we've made in cardiovascular medicine...these are good times to live in because we've made staggering progress in mental health medicine as well.

All the best.

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   Posted 5/21/2008 11:54 AM (GMT -6)   

Dear cammie01,

Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P forum.  I am glad your found us and I am so sorry about the death of your Father.  What a sad time for you. 

I believe D gave you some great advice and she is proof of someone advocating for themselves.

Please do consider making an appointment with a therapist as they are very helpful to many people.

Let your feelings come.  Don't run away from panic. When you feel panic build up, take a deep breath and as you breathe out, let go.  Keep trying.  Stay there almost as if you were floating in space.  Don't fight the feeling of panic.  Accept it.  You can deal with it.

Don't indulge in stinkin thinking. "Why can't I be normal? Why does this have to happen to me?"  Just accept what is happening to you.  If you do this, what you fear most will not happen.

Again a warm welcome.

Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic 
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   Posted 5/21/2008 1:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello Cammie,

I just wanted to welcome you to Healing Well. You have come to a really good place. Just hang in there, there are wonderful people here that can help you to feel better.

Luv and hugs, Karen
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   Posted 5/21/2008 8:31 PM (GMT -6)   
I also would like to welcome you to the Healing Well Anxiety-Panic forum.  You will find that this is a great place to gain comfort, support, and advice from our personal experiences.  I'm very sorry about the death of your father, it's a very difficult time for you.
You've gotten some great advice so far and I really can't offer much more other than to say follow your heart and what you and your doctor think is best for you.
Please keep posting to let us know how you are doing and we look forward to getting to know you a whole lot better!!  :-)

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   Posted 5/21/2008 8:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Welcome to HW, there is no better place on the web for support than right here!  I agree that the first place to start is to find a therapist who specializes in panic/anxiety, and to learn CBT.  Those two combined with meds are what got me through the really bad times.  I feel for you about losing your Dad, my anxiety skyrocketed right after my Dad died, and I became completely housebound for almost 2 years.  Grief can really do a number on you when you have anxiety.  I just want you to know that I am better, like I said, I couldn't leave the house at all for almost two years, the panic was constant and I was miserable all the time, but I worked with CBT and used my meds as prescribed and I am getting out all the time now and have very little anxiety when I have it at all.  Hang in there, it can and does get better!  Let me know if I can help you at all.

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   Posted 5/22/2008 12:14 AM (GMT -6)   
hey Cammie!

Hang in there. I've had all those feeling before too. The burning sensation whooshing over me, attached with fear and the sense that i've lost control... I too really freak out about taking meds. I had to have my doctor write down "Its ok to take" the medication I take during a panic attack, cause i was afraid of the medication making things worse, some how... Panic, for me, is like very physically and emotionally painful. It never full goes away. It comes up out a no where and BAM, i'm gone... Sucked in to the fearful abyss. It makes me think and feel that medications are actually causing the symptoms or making things worse... Its a lowsy feeling. The only thing that has ever helped me (other than meds, cause those really help me a lot) But inviting the panic in when it shows up. I know it sounds weird, but fear is like its gasoline and the more we run the more we dump fuel on the fire. I've laid in my bed with my heart racing sayig out loud " Come on panic, i'm right f'n here, bring it on!!" Sounds kinda funny but i remember a few times that being enough to get me back to sleep with out having to take meds. Its really hard to keep doing, especially if you're encountering attacks on a regular basis.

Anyways, hang in there! Write lots if you want, thats also a great way to let some of that extra energy out.

all the best_
Anxiety, Panic Disorder, Depression, possibly Bipolar 2.

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   Posted 5/22/2008 2:59 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi Cammie, welcome, it's lovely to have you here.  Everyone has already given you really great advice. That butterfly feeling is really awful isn't it? I've been taking xanax on and off for years and it does help me with bad attacks, but there are othet med options for day to day anxiety (maybe you can look at that with your doc).  I hope things improve for you soon, you've been through a bit of a tough time (to put it lightly) Again, welcome and please keep us posted.

dcoach thankyou, that was really great input and I'm looking forward to getting to know you better :-)

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   Posted 5/23/2008 11:33 AM (GMT -6)   
Welcome Cami
I just lost my dad on April 17th so I do feel your pain and know you are not alone in this

You have been given great advice..I would seriously think about talking to your doc ....

Stay with us plz


I second what sweet megs posted dcoach....great stuff said ..........LYN
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