I know exactly how you feel, I have been where you are and I am sure I will have events in the future that may be the same.
At my very worse I would force myself to go to events and I was so anxious while there that a sip of wine made my head spin. I just wanted to run away and I would watch the other people laughing and talking and wonder what had happened to me. I used to be like them.
I have found that accepting myself for who I am now is what makes it better. You did a great job, and be proud of that. You went and a celebration is in order. I also understand coming home and feeling like it was so hard and wanting to know why? I tried to figure out the why for so long but I never found the answer.
So I do the very best I can and if I decide that I need to stay home and cannot attend something, I allow myself to do that.
I practice being in the moment. If I am in a situation where the anxiety starts notching up, I keep telling myself "I am OK" "Nothing bad is going to happen to me"
You did extremely well my friend. Kudos to you and bushels of hugs.
Stick with us as you are family here.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~