Hey, I haven't shared this before but I'm freaking out to the point that I have to do this now. I don't tell people this for fear of judgement, but I believe that my HW family will not think less of me for this. I'm trusting you now okay. I have been married for 8 years now. My husband, has been a missing person for five of those years. I try not to dwell, because it makes everything worse....I feel I am partly to blame.
He was working in a high stress national security job and he developed panic disorder and agrophobia (he had none of this when he met me - I feel that I was a bad influence somehow) and became paranoid. He didn't take his meds, didn't get much help. Then he didn't come home and that was it.
I tried to find him but we have an incredibly common surname and he has no surviving family. I don't have the money or emotional strength to comb the earth.
I have tried to move on, have moved state, have an amazing guy in my life who puts up with my kookai...
The freak is, this morning one of my dearest friends (Who lives many states away) called me, she is sure she saw him and tried to talk to him, but he ran????! I am scared, my anxiety is through the roof, in fact it is through a whole suburb of roofs. What if he comes back? What do I do? What if he IS alive? This is so freaky..I don't know what to do. I'm just so ahhhh. Please help.
Panic Attack Survivor
Weekend Warrior Princess