Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum. I am so glad you felt comfortable posting to us. You will find a lot of people with anxiety in a large group of people.
Your phobia of crowds is impacting your quality of life. It is causing you panic attacks and keeping you from going places you would like to be I suspect. Symptoms of phobia typically include shortness of breath, rapid breathing, irregular heartbeat, sweating, nausea, and overall feelings of dread, so please know the symptoms are self limiting and will go away.
Like all fears and phobias, crowded public place phobia is created by the unconscious mind as a protective mechanism. You may never identify the original event but through therapy I believe you can overcome your fears.
I understand your fears and how it feels to have others looking at us as if we are differnt then they are, but remember we are all human and each of them may have something in their lives too. So hold your head up high and be proud of who you are.
Here in A & P we are all equal so you are part of the HW family now and please feel comfortable posting as we will support you and never judge.
Great advice from Sister J, and Wen.
Take care and stick with us
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety ~ Panic
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~