I am sorry I didnt get back to you til today but I did at least get back right
I agree that sometimes our other sig in our lives dont "get what we go thru " on a day to day basis..
What this all means to us
WE have to have some of our own power as well hun as it is not good to give all of it away to any one person IMHO
I did and he passed away left me with 2 small boys
I was totally blown away and had to LEARN what I had to do .....
They have not got the angst when they HAVE to go out the door
Shopping or to kids plays or teachers meetings with hearts racing and hands all sweaty ya know
Ya all ppl have some anxiety but there is a difference with theirs and ours
I get what you are saying totally
I am a severe OCD with cleaning and I cannot even lv a dics in the sinks either one
I did my whole routine ( as soon as I come out of my bedroom : which I made bed as soon as feet hit floor lol) every morning
My house is well it is not dirty but in my head it is ...
I just see what I think others MIGHT yet they dont and I am fixated on that too
It has literally eaten me up inside having to keep doing this and keep a smile on my face while pretending all is "GREAT"
I started CBT and for me it is helping but the other thing is I had to learn that my life is more than doing dishes being mom of the yr all of it.
It will fall into place and the stuff does get sone
I have one teen so you can imagine that I have hardly a thing to do
Cait is great to help me out wih more than her share and so was Howie at one pint BUT he has now taken to liking being dotted on IMHO and I have put a stop to that
You see hun I just cannot do it ALL anymore and I am so sick of anticipating the reactions of others even Howie who should know that he was told by the doc about
sex relations and problems of mine or issues ......
He is 10 yrs younger and I feel I have held him back so I am letting him go he leaves this wknd
There are other issues involved that I will not ever live with .........
Hope you will make it thru this you both have come along way together and I am sure talking about
it and how you feel and how he feels will help I really do .........
I am glad you posted I really am and now you need to focus on regretting some of the strong indepdant woman back that is CAPABLE ........not asying he is going to leave you but really we all DO know you never know from day to day what can change in our lives
Email me if you would like I check in the am's
Hoping some of this helps you
I know you will be fine you have got to get yourself back soem strong YOU and hold it close IMHO do the things you can.........
YOUR HEALTH and well being is first and foremost IMHO
LOL now I am ramblin it seems
I guess I am just trying to tell you I really hope you have a great start with hubby today and take the time to do something together .....even if it is just go out to store or something
EVEN talking this all out may help your stress ,anxiety and panic mode
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