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Date Joined Dec 2006
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   Posted 6/7/2008 12:17 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi All.  I'm just feeling overwhelming sadness and frustration today with the foot surgery.  It seems every day something different comes up with the foot or the bandage or the walking boot and I start worrying (more like obsessing) and can't get past it.  I've been crying for 3 hours this morning.  All I wanted to do this morning was clean up a bit and do a load of laundry and both turn into major projects because of the stupid boot/foot surgery.  I'm past the point of caring if the wound is healed.  I want the darn boot and bandages off.  I haven't slept for what seems like forever since I have to wear the boot at night.  Which I'm sure lack of sleep isn't helping either.  I knew going into this surgery that I'd be laid up and not able to do normal routine for a few weeks and at the time it didnt' seem like a big deal.  As each day passes, I'm getting more frustrated and obsessing more about every little twinge or anything different with the foot.  My anxiety is much higher and it's all because I am obsessing about the foot and each change that happens and don't feel like I can call my doctor cause I don't want to sound like a hypochondriac (which is all I am right now I think).  I've talked to my Mom about all these feelings and she listened and really does understand and wishes there was something she and my Dad could do to help.  It did help some talking to her but, unlike me, she doesn't suffer from anxiety/depression, so things sit different with her and she is much more capable of "acceptance" and "patience" than I.  Okay, I've vented.  I'm gonna go check out other posts and see what is up in others worlds and try to defocus on my world.
Thanks for listening and sorry for the long rant.
Thou shalt smile and have a nice day.  It frustrates those who have other plans for thee.
Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002.
Medications:  Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.

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Date Joined Apr 2007
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   Posted 6/7/2008 6:02 PM (GMT -6)   


I am so proud of had your surgery.  I was suppose to have srugery on my arthritic thumb as I have bone on bone, it was scheduled for January of 2006............I got pneumonia right before and I have yet to reschedule.  The surgery calls for 6 weeks of casts that have to be changed and then PT, of course it is my right hand and I freak at the idea of not being able to use my hand for that long.

So you get to go to the head of the class.  You are brave and let those tears of frustration out.  You have come this far so get mad and hang in there my new friend.  I admire your spunk and be sure to sit on the porch and soak up the good weather.

I just need to take a lesson from your book and do it.



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Date Joined Jul 2006
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   Posted 6/8/2008 12:59 AM (GMT -6)   

Diane, no apologies for a well justified rant okay? I know how badly I can get "stuck in my head" from just one day spent alone.  I can imagine it must be hugely magnified for you right now.  This is normal and it will pass when you get back into routine.  Dosen't help much knowing that now I know, but you will get "out" of this thought "holding pattern". 

I'm sorry you are feeling frustrated, I promised I would fire up my carpet and come visit soon...I will bring sudoko and chocolate and we can hire some cute gut to do laundry and cook us nice food.  Stay strong sweet Dianne.  You will get through this.  Meanwhile.  Vent at will honey, you earned it!

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Date Joined Dec 2006
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   Posted 6/8/2008 2:39 PM (GMT -6)   

Hi All.  Thanks for the words of encouragement and support.

Gramps:  proceed and succeed is a great way to put it.  I just have to somehow make it thru.  I'm sure this is nothing compared to spinal surgeries - ouch.  If you can do it, so can I.

Kitt:  thank you so much for thinking I am "brave".  I am anything but that, but thanks for thinking I am.  I am a HUGE wimp.  I have the lowest pain tolerance of anyone in the world.  I wish I could sit on the porch.  My porch is made of concrete and sun is hitting it and it is now 95 degrees here in St. Louis with heat indices nearing 100.  No place for me to be in the cast and having hot flashes.  Yikes.  But it is a nice thought.

Nervymeg:  Stuck in my head is exactly where all the thoughts are and everything gets magnified if I obsess.  I agree with you on that one.  Once I can get back to any semblance of "normalcy" I will be much better off.

I was sitting here on my couch today just staring into space and my twin walks in my front door.  I had a long conversation with my Mom yesterday on the phone telling her how frustrated and stuff I am and evidently it has made it around the grapevine of my family.  Everyone is concerned and I appreciate it but there really is nothing they can do to get me back on my feet faster or get rid of the pain or help me sleep better in the darn boot or stop the constant worrying, etc.  I'm going to my Mom and Dad's later today for dinner.

Only 3 1/2 days to go and the stitches come out and I can take a normal standing shower and get out of this bulky cumbersome hot sweaty ugly "&&*&^%$$##%^" boot.  Mom says it doesn't hurt to get the stitches out so it better not.  Anybody ever had stitches removed?  Is it painless?

I am just sooooo grateful and thank God for each and every one of you friends I am making here.

Thou shalt smile and have a nice day.  It frustrates those who have other plans for thee.
Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002.
Medications:  Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.

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Date Joined Jan 2005
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   Posted 6/9/2008 10:58 AM (GMT -6)   
I too like Gramps know the frustration of having to sit back and let the " Healing Process" run its full course

As you know it sometimes takes months for my PG sores to close and I am constantly in pain,embarrassment and depression, anxiety, emotional pain from it all

I have NOT had to go thru all the surgeries and all the misdiagnosis Gramps has thank GOD and I am truly sorry he has been put thru the Hades he has....he is spot on you DO NOT want Chronic Pain to be your friend ...WORST friend you'll ever HAVE

I DO have Chronic Pain and it is not something I would ever wish on anyone even my worst enemy .....

Lay back and let the family help you out
I know you dont want to ( at least I dont believe you do ) be a burden or think you are to anyone BUT hun you are not ...
YOU have to get better and the oly way that will happen is if you do what you are supposed to do
Grin and bear it ( I KNOW it is hard) and get yourself thru this
WE are going to be here to support you and help you anyway we possibly can .........

For at night is there a way to put your foot up and positioned so it is not bothering you as much??
Can you use a pillow or a couple of them to prop up the boot......?? Or like I said position it
I dont know if I am getting the clearest pic of what you are dealing with but I do hope you can get some relief

As for obsessing over it
Get your self a good book or like you did say read other posts and think about other things
Journal a bit that may help
ANYTHING to keep your mind off of it......... if just for awhile

I DO hope your supper was good and that you have had a good night out last night

VENT away ........
Take care hun


Am hoping today is looking better for you

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