oh ok, yeh i have heard of that name, but mostly for me its mental health problems, you see im not worried of asthma or heart attacks and things like that because i dont find them scary, you see its the scary things i think im going to get.. like if i hear about other disorders and i have to completly understand why people have what they have so i know i wont get it.. and then if i completly understand that is also bad because then i think it can happen to me becasue i know how it works, silly hey.. but it hasnt really been an issue anymore, it was when i was new to the freak outs, but now im less worried about it, i mean ill try not to hear so much about other things if i can but if i accidently hear something my rationalised thoughts do take over thank god.. takes practise and time though and then it just doesnt bother that much, im still cautions though, i mean i find it kind of fascinating how the thinking thing all works i mean when i look back at these silly worries its funny but at the same time its like why do i get these thoughts? A doctor once said to me its a way of gaining control.. like having to understand everything but i mean why do i worry in the first place?? beats me.. however this is an example of somethign that was an issue for me that i freaked out about but it works in the same way for anything that i will freak out about that i dont understand.. ill obsess and i need to know the answer to know that ill be ok with anything, now that i think about it though.. my fears all seem to be about me being ok the fear of not being ok is too scary for me and if i read anything about how the mind works or whatevr and i find it scary ill obsess till i know ill be ok hmm interesting i never thought this before its the threat of not being ok, normal i dont know. This is my problem, and i dont know what it is to call it, this is the only issue, the thought thing and having to know why. it drives me nuts like ill say to myself its ok u cant know everything just have faith.. but no later on its why this and why that arggh. Anyway its that and i get panic attacks with life in general like in scary situations etc.. which thats fine i can live with that but the thought thing is really annoying.. i mean at least its not 24/7 though its just if something triggers me to think. which always seems to be things that threaten my wellbeing. i have to work on that somehow, it would be good if i knew what i was working with though! anyway i better stop now or ill be rambling forever :) thats for putting up with mE :) if anyone has the same issues and know what i mean please let me know!!