I did not mean to sound flip in my answer to you. I hope you did not take it that way.
You see I have lived your life in my younger days but I gave up my husband, home and all and took my 3 children with me for another person that was not a free man. I thought I loved him but within a week he walked out on me and my 3 children and left me stranded in a strange city far from home and took his car too. I had no car, 3 kids and was broken hearted until I got mad at myself for being so dumb. What did I really expect?
So I went a step further then you and then worked very hard to put my life back together. My biggest regret was how I forgot I was a Mother and put my own wants ahead of my children without a blink of an eye.
I never did that again. I learned to take care of my children and myself and I am now married for 37 years to the real love of my life. My second husband.
No I did not go back to my first husband that I walked out on. It would not have worked out. I was only 23 at the time.
My heart hurts for you as these situations are always so difficult and yes you will get past this, in fact you will recover faster then you think.
I have great faith in you.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression https://www.healingwell.com/donate *~* Not a mental health professional of any kindIt is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~