My meltdown, I can't handle this anymore

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Date Joined Jan 2007
Total Posts : 113
   Posted 6/17/2008 3:33 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi all, I really need to talk.  This morning I had a severe anxiety attack because my life is basically falling apart at every angle.  I am broke, my bank account is in the negative, I just lost my job, moving back home, I;ve been chronically sick with horrendous pain, I have all these doctors tests comming up that I cannot afford,  I am litterally going crazy and I can't handel this physical and emotional pain I have.  My past haunts me cause I got attacked many times and I just wish it would all go away.  I've been soo soo sick and I have no idea how I will ever get better.  I used to have such strong faith but lately I cant even seem to want to try anymore.  I was litterally shaking with dread this morning and I couldnt see any end to this nightmare I am living.  I really dont know what to say I just wish there was some light at the end of this tunnel....some light, some hope, some way out of this because I really am lost and feel completely hopeless.  I am 27 and think I have suffered enough to last me a lifetime.  God I wish there were some healing angels I need a miracle I just wish so bad I could turn everything around but I cant see how that is possible.  Thank you for reading this, it means a lot.
DX: Gastroparesis, Bile and acid reflux, esophagitis, barrets esophagus, esophageal motility disorder, painful and difficulty swallowing, depression, anxiety, a piano player with carpral tunnel syndrome
                    ~ Miracle, Healing ~

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Date Joined Apr 2007
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   Posted 6/17/2008 4:37 PM (GMT -6)   


You are posting here so that is showing you still have hope.  If you are broke, no job and have severe health problems you need to seek out your local county and state resources for help.  Also are you eligible to file for disability with SS?  How about your church, food shelves etc.

If you have an emergency re funds and such please look for the site in your vicinity.  I do not know where you are or I would help search for you. If you want to email me your location I have an open email box.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel as I have found it.  I have been in the dark tunnel many times and each time crawling out is tough but I did it and so can you.

I was glad to see you in chat and talking, that alone helps you to not feel isolated.

Do you get along with your Mom? 

Is anything else bothering you that you would like to share?

Bless you



Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression 
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It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~

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Date Joined Jun 2008
Total Posts : 3
   Posted 6/17/2008 6:36 PM (GMT -6)   
Your angels are there, you just need to ask them to help you. Write a little note to each one, Angel of money, Angel of Health etc. They are there you just need to trust yourself that everything is going to be fine. It's hard not to allow yourself to become poisoned by the past, future. Just write down 5 things you need to get done this year! Little checklist to help you feel better. You will be surprised how fast they are accomplished, after you've completed them write down the next set of 5. It will be something to talk about to other people, you've started you goal plan etc... a path to success.

Take care of yourself and it will take care of you....
Hope I have helped you
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