It sounds like you made it through the roughest session: the intake. It is so overwhelming to read all those questions, and try to think of all the times you've experienced what they're asking about. I also have to take a long time to think about what the questions really mean. For instance, the question might say "Have you ever experienced back pain?" Well, yeah, but that's not what I'm there for, and it was decades ago and is healed now, so do I answer "yes" or "no"? Silly things like that. It can take me forever to fill out a medical history at a new doctor's. I start writing my answers in the margin because there's not room to do anything but check the "yes" or "no" box, and neither of those is the right answer for me.
I have faith in you. I know you're struggling, and that you will have successes and slips, but the sheer fact that you're trying so hard to take on all your demons is really something. I honestly don't know more than half a dozen people that would go through with that. Lots would say they are, or start, but in just a couple days, they'd realize they weren't really committed to the task.
*You* are definitely showing incredible commitment to getting well. That makes you a role model, IMHO.