Thank you for the replies. I am already diagnosed as bipolar. I have discussed all these things with past pdocs but was told to try meditation. It enraged me. So I'm transferring to a different pdoc and my first appointment is Friday. But waiting in the meantime is driving me nuts! Well, maybe I'm already there....
I've told about
three different pdocs about
these things. Also, restless leg syndrome, being fidgety all the time, I pick scabs (like an OCD tick), etc etc. But they all seemed to think these things would go away with the antidepressant. (Zoloft treats OCD as well? supposedly?) Well, they haven't. And they listen to me talk about
these things, but they don't say anything about
how to treat it medically.
I have always been proactive in my own diagnosis and what meds I want to try. I do a lot of research before going to appointments. My last appointment with a pdoc, last week, she actually didn't know what clonopin was and told me I should find a new pdoc because I knew more about
available meds than she did. She was kind of older, but still an MD. How is that possible?
Finding a good pdoc seems to be a difficult feat. I had one at my university and she was able to diagnose my bp pretty accurately when I thought it was plain depression, but then she suggests I meditate to get rid of panic attacks. The last thing I can do during a panic attack is meditate.... I can barely breathe or think logically, how can I meditate? It really upset me. Almost like she thought I was exaggerating or being a baby. The new pdoc I made an appointment with is located in a "center" of sorts that specializes in anxiety, bipolar, and depression and has everything you could ever need right in their facility. There is IOP, group therapy, support groups, pdocs and tdocs, etc. I'm very excited and hope to find the right pdoc that will work WITH me and realize that I'm the expert on what is happening to me. I want some say in what I put in my body.
I'm thinking of asking for a very low dose of clonopin to take daily. I've heard some people take .25 mg before bedtime to help them sleep and a few extra for "emergencies" (ie panic attacks). My boyfriend has GAD. He doesn't have panic attacks though. So luckily he understands very well what I'm going through. His meds have helped him quite a bit.
Thank you again and I'm very glad to be here. I'm sure I'll be posting here in this topic, as well as bipolar and depression sections. It's nice to be able to talk about
what's going on.