Wow, a vacation.........ok well sweetie your off on an adventure. I have learned to go slow on vacations and notch down my hurry to do all and get everything perfect. I am on vacation.........so if hubby takes care of things, it is ok. You have a bad back. He knows this and I trust he understands why you must pace yourself.
No rock climbing or hiking tough trails, and hey leave the water skiing to the kids. If you catch a fish make it a little sunfish not a 7 lb big mouth bass. Lift nothing heavier then a glass of something cool to drink.
I had severe anxiety 2 years ago and my hubby and I go on vacation the week of Labor Day. We got in the car for the 500 mile road trip and at mile marker 75 I was crying to go back home, he said nope. So I asked him to just talk to me about anything..........just talk.
He did and that really helped. I did keep asking to go back home but he said nope, you planned this trip and you will be fine. Made it to the first night's hotel and I was still alive. Next day went better and in the end I did have a good time and built memories.
You are not alone so practice the breathing and tell yourself over and over "I am OK" You will make it and remember, you have nothing to fear but fear itself.
Happy Vacation and try to stay in the moment. Don't worry about the past and the future will take care of itself.
Hugs to you my friend
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression https://www.healingwell.com/donate *~* Not a mental health professional of any kindIt is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~