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Date Joined Jul 2008
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   Posted 7/2/2008 12:33 AM (GMT -6)   
I just turned 25-female. I live in NYC, and believe it or not am an actress...with some decent success. People are always shocked to find out that I have panic attacks and suffer from anxiety. I've suffered from anxiety ever since I can remember, and panic attacks started when i was in high school. Certain weeks it rules my life, others, I am fine. As I get older, I am scared it is getting worse- i am so determined not to let this get in the way of anything I want to accomplish in my life! I couldn't sleep tonight (like many many nights) overcome with a massive tingling sensation coming in waves over my neck and back of my head. I've been taking some medication as needed to help me relax this past week, but normally I try not to. I have SO MANY anxiety symptoms and they are always changing. I get a lot of heart palpitations, racing, chest pain, tingling, sharp pains and "ZAPS" as I read someone describe them...(That is what made me want to join this blog...reading what someone wrote about a sensation i thought I was the only one feeling and that made me crazy-- but it turns out I'm not!) I just am so thankful that other people out there are open about their anxiety and panic- because I don't have anyone I'm close to that understands me. My mom is actually a physician assistant (PA) and my sister is a doctor, so while they "understand my symptoms" they look at me too medically, and discard a lot of what i tell them- say..."oh you're fine, its just your anxiety". I'm like...."logically, I KNOW THAT! But that doesn't make me feel any better, and WHY am I feeling this way!?" What will help? I need to hear other people's stories and support that FEEL THE THINGS I DO- that is so important I am realizing- that it is REAL and we are not crazy, and not alone. So, I am hopeful to make many new friends here and help others when i can, and have others help me.
Deep breaths and faith...

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   Posted 7/2/2008 2:49 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi LoBo and welcome to HW, I am glad you have joined us. We are a supportive and caring forum, so you are in the right place. It sounds like you have quite a few anxiety symptoms, including the dreaded "zaps" and insomnia. You are not alone!
You mention that you are an actress, a lot of people with anxiety are creative and imaginative (we need to have a good sense of humour too sometimes!). If you feel comfortable can you tell us if you take any medications or recieve counselling at all? It sounds like you have a lot of information through your sister and mother, but that doesn't always mean understanding.
We are all here to support one another, and again, I am glad you have joined. Please keep us posted with how you are going.
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Date Joined Nov 2007
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   Posted 7/2/2008 4:17 AM (GMT -6)   
I am sorry to hear about your problem. I have had the same problem since I was your age. I t is still a part of my life 20 years later. I was diagnosed after several trips to the ER thinking I was dying of a heart attack. Most of the time my anxiety is on going, I've learned to deal with it on a daily basis. But....when the I have a panic attack it's entirely different. I had been taking atavan for some time for the panic when it strikes usually for several hours about every three months or so . I had to visit a phychologyst for another problem and when he read the presc. it reads 3xaday so he assumed I was taking it every day and told me I should not take it because it is addictive. It does show up in my labs so now I don't know what I'll do when the panic strikes. I guess visit the ER so they can tell me that I'm having a panic attack and give me some atavan???? You are not alone. june

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   Posted 7/2/2008 6:38 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi LoBo

Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum. You have come to the right place to find wonderful members that will share their stories and tell you how they deal with their anxiety.

I have had A & P for 26 years and I am an RN, so much like an actress, I was on stage alot with people always watching me,  I became a very good actress at hiding my anxiety and my depression.  I beieve they call it stage fright.............and I had a lot of it.

I do use medications and I have been to counseling.  I experience what is known as Anticipatory anxiety = stage fright.

“Anticipatory anxiety” is the anxiety one experiences before starting a challenging activity. Most often, anticipatory anxiety is a lot higher than what you actually end up experiencing.

You are not alone so please keep posting and tell us how you are and we will do our best to help your kick that old anxiety to the curb.

Gentle Hugs



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   Posted 7/2/2008 7:24 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi LoBo,

I am so glad that you have found Healing Well and decided to join us.  As has already been said, we are a very caring community that is supportive of one another and always willing to help each other.  You have found a great place to be.

I too have dealt with anxiety and panic for many, many years along with many of the sensations that you describe.  There are times that I wonder if I will ever get it under control, but it's just a fact of my life - some days/weeks are just better than others.  Most of the time it doesn't rule/run me, but I will admit that there are times it does and I think that's pretty much "par for the course" for a lot of people who deal with A & P.  Along with many others, I use a combination of meds and counseling in order to help me through these issues.  Even though your mother and sister are in the medical profession, it doesn't mean they really understand what you are dealing with.  You've definitely come to the right place for support and being able to talk with others who have the same problem as you.

Take care and welcome to Healing Well,


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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 7/2/2008 9:22 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi and welcome!
You have found a great place for support. I am sure that your family thinks they understand b/c they "medically" understand, but until you have actually experienced A & P you can't fully comprehend what we feel. I have had it for over 20 years and it has unfortunately controlled a great deal of my life. Many people find help through medications and counseling and I hope that you do. I myself have finally decided to get back out and try again to get help (due to other health issues I had to wait awhile). I think it is amazing that you are an actress - that is wonderful! I am trying to remember that actress that suffered with anxiety (blond) - Kim Basinger I think?!?! - I read an article about a long time ago.

I pray you will find the answers you are looking for - please feel free to ask any questions or just vent to us - we have all been there!


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   Posted 7/2/2008 10:02 AM (GMT -6)   
Just wanting to stop in and WELCOME you to HW

You have received plenty of great input already

This is a great place with fantastic ppl and they will all lend a hand when you are in need

YOU are never alone again

Stay with us

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Date Joined Jun 2008
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   Posted 7/2/2008 10:21 AM (GMT -6)   
Hey LoBo,
Welcome to Healing Well! This is a wonderful place for support and love. We all understand eachother here. So now just keep posting!
I will tell you some of my story and introduce myself to you. I am 19 (turning 20 this month) female. I have been married for almost three years and we have a 2 year old son. He is a mess! Right now my husband and I are seperated and I am staying with my Daddy and stepmomma. I have struggled with anxiety since I was about 5. It comes and goes but when it does come it hits very hard. My husband didn't understand and wasn't very kind or supportive of me. He called my very bad names like F'in psycho Withch. So I left him and suprise, my anxiety levels are very low! I am in a very confused place right now with all of that. But I can still offer support to others which also helps me. If you have any questions or just want to talk you can email me. I hope you are having a good day! (((((((((((LOVE and HUGS)))))))))))))))))
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   Posted 7/2/2008 10:48 AM (GMT -6)   
Everyone who has posted previously is right, you have found the best place for support and comfort right here!  I agree with you that it helps tremendously to have people to turn to who have been where you are and experience the same feelings and symptoms.  There is a comfort in sharing and knowing you are not alone.  I've experienced alot of the symptoms that you mentioned and especially hate the tingling head.  I do hope that you will continue to come here and let all of us get to know you better. 
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