I have a happy home life, financially getting by (but not great). Have many things I love in my life. Have NO desire to leave it. But when my stress gets huge, like when i fell like i'm failing at something, or can't think about "one more thing", I have these visions or something. alone, thank god)...WTH???? I DON'T WANT THAT AT ALL!! Why is that down inside me somewhere and doing this crap?
My job? stressful but whose isn't?
My friends? One is great, the other requires some carefulness and work, but also very great
My family? OK - distant, some past hurt, but don't like to dwell... and don't deal with them much
My partner? Incredibly fabulous and love my life at home
Am I busy? Yup, work, music (joy), a little dance for exercise, and a garden and some animals
The reason this is weird to me is that I can tell you quite honestly that I DON'T want to hurt myself, but these visions keep recurring. Seems to contradict and confuses and scares me. This is interferring with my life and I'm tired of it and don't have time for it.
Thanks for your time, Raea
Raea, I edited your post due to HW rules, however I left as much as I coudl.
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 7/7/2008 5:07:08 PM (GMT-6)