Thanks for the advice.
Its like go through stages, like when i become ill i think omg it must be HIV, and my mother and father having a cough and cold. It me thinking omg i used his razor a couple of weeks ago (even though i asked him and he said he didnt use that razor anyway) and now ive give them all HIV. Its only when i get ill or the people around me get ill that it really bothers me.
Im so tired of all this, i want to sleep without thinking about it but i cant. Its like now i cant put the incident rationally. I placed my hand on something inside a stool, it was defo inside. Who places a needle inside a nailed down chair, and recovers the chair perfectly just to infect someone... its insane...yet i cant see that.
ive made an appointment with my doctor. but last time i didnt find that the counsellor helped. she kept going off into my family history when i knew my fear was over HIV but i didnt want to be rude and say.
I feel like im going mad, and i so tired and miserable.