Just try to relax. And know that you are not going to "snap"...
You are a wonderful kind and caring person, it is obvious. I think after having the murder on your mind, you associated it with something that got you thinking, what if I were to do that? But this person was sick in the head, a killer. He may have even planned to do it for some type of gain. You are not even close to being like that. So Please,,, relax knowing that you are a wonderful human being and that we all love you. You will be fine, I can feel it.
Hope that this helped some,
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