Many New Peeps ...Please post a lil about self and where you are FROM & a bit about yourself PART 3

Posted 3/3/2008 4:09 PM (GMT -6)

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Meet our senior Mod Howlyncat, senior  in posts only, not in age................      Good Morning all     I see so many new members here lately thought it would be nice to add your name here if you want and a lil something about yourself..........    My name is Lyn and I live in Ontario Canada,Have one teen daughter at home a son age 33 will be 34 in October and 2 GK .......   I Have A/P, Crohns, Pyoderma Gangrenosum and a few other med issues but I live each day to the fullest   I still know how to love and laugh have a good time thru it all        This community has been a real friend to me and many on here I cherish and are family and always will be there is something about being able to bare your soul and not be judged ....that is a real support for all that ails you IMHO  Please check out Resources and know the rules and guidelines of HW...Look back on back pages of older threads there may be something there to help you out or that you really relate too Know you are not alone and we are all in the same fight against this DD    HW has given me so much over the yrs and I hope it does you as well... Please feel free to intro yourself and where you are from.......IF you care too only.........    B seeing ya around the board  Lyn

Posted by stained_glass_eyes

Posted Today 6:59 PM (GMT -6)

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hi, im 21 years old (female) and i've been having a lot of problems recently. i have trouble with hypoglycemia and my pancreas, so i take enzymes with food to help digest. i also take magnesium supplements because i was having serious chest pain and i went to the ER and they did basic tests and determined i wasn't having a heart attack, but yeah, im still obsessively worried. for a while, taking the magnesium supplement regularly, made my chest pain go away completely, along with flutters and racing heart beat. it came back after one night that i drank (drinking can release magnesium stores), and when i don't take it for a few days. lately though i've had an enormously foggy head. it's really hard to stay focused and concentrate, and i can barely remember things in the short term. i think i've had low blood pressure (i'm about to start my monthly cycle, so i might be related to that?), because when i stand i feel kind of faint, and then when i stand for a while i get that weird thing in your head/ears where you can hear yourself breathing. if i sit down or lower my head more level with my chest it goes away. anyway, i have started becoming really paranoid that it's a blood flow thing. because of the real foggy thinking, and the low blood pressure, and i have had some chest pains again just recently (i havent taken the magnesium for about a week). i start reading things and i start thinking i have something terrible. i have a doctors appointment on tuesday but the office is closed today and tomorrow so i can't even just go in to talk about it. i've been getting some anxiety. i read some people here having the tingling head/legs. i get that sometimes too. my hands get sweaty, but i think that's related to my low blood sugar. it's hard to discern between the two because it feels really similar. and also, it feels like im having a panic attack when my blood sugar gets low, because of the adrenaline released. but then sometimes it seems to be unrelated. well, hello.<!-- Edit --> Post Edited (stained_glass_eyes) : 7/27/2008 6:02:07 PM (GMT-6)

Posted by Moondance

Posted Today 7:46 PM (GMT -6)

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Hi Everyone, My name is Donna and I am 49 years old. My anxiety/panic started in 2004. On my job that was fairly stressful, but I was good at it and I really enjoyed my work. One day while I was at work, I suddenly felt, well, PANIC....lol.....I had no idea what was happening to me. It went on and on and I could barely stay at my desk but I somehow got through the day. I went home and tried to shake it off, blaming it on excessive caffeine, maybe I was getting the flu.....just went to bed early that night and tried to forget about it. But the next morning...I found that I was still so very anxious...scared to go to a job that I had been so relaxed at for the past 5 years.....I had another horrible day at work again. So...(and here is where I messed up BIG TIME)...I quit. My manager called me at home want to know what POSSIBLY could have made me done this. I had every opportunity to be honest with her and I didnt do it. I was so ashamed. But I thought leaving the job would be the end of it. But oh no. The panic started happening at the grocery store, at the bank, at ANY social gathering.....I went to my family Doctor and was prescribed Lexapro...I gave that six weeks and felt like I was coming out of my skin. It was even worse than before, so he took me off of that and wanted me to see a Psychiatrist. Now, I am in no way opposed to seeing a Psychiatrist, and think I will need to see one this time, but at that time I just decided I wanted to get well on my own. I started reading everything I could read about anxiety disorders. I changed my diet, exercised, did visualization, took supplements....and prayed alot. I took little baby steps in getting my life back, reentering little situations and proving to myself that YES, I could do that. If I couldnt do it, I would not beat myself up, just try it again later. One of my books called it...."practice...not TEST" and for some reason that made a difference for me. It was slow but it WORKED. By this time last summer, I could do everything that I used to do. I am not saying I did these things with TOTAL relaxation, but I could do them. Until June of this year, when out of nowhere I had a panic attack in a restaurant...one that I go to quite often....we have our "girls night" there every friday night....it was so out of control and I wanted to flee but honestly didnt think my legs felt strong enough to even get me out of there. I suffered through it and went home and cried the remainder of the night. Its all back. Every last bit of it. As if I didnt even make any progress whatsoever. It feels good being here. I want to reread all of these stories so I can start getting to know everyone. Thanks so much for the warm welcome. I know noone that suffers with this. I have told a few friends, and while they do try to understand....I see their confusion......"what....so you cant eat at restaurants anymore??? HUH???? LOL....but in a sad way.......

 Thanks Lil sis

Hello everyone,

My name is Catherine. I am 25 years old and live in Illinois. I actually have another post in the Ulcerative Colitis forum. My family has dealt with anxiety/panic, as well as OCD, and depression. My brother and sister has problems with it, as well as my mom and dad. We all deal with it differently though. My mom is on Celexa for hers, my dad drinks it away, my sister has her xanax, and my brother.... well, I don't know what he's exactally on, he takes alot of different things. I was prescribed Prozac at first a few years ago, but that just made me angry. Then I was on Zoloft, but that made me too apethetic. Now, after a few years of no meds, and doing well, I recently had a health scare. I got very sick due to an allergic reaction to medication for my UC. I could have died from it.... traumatized by all this, I feel that my anxiety as well as depression blew up right after that. I was given Xanax in the hospital recently, as well as Ativan. I take Ativan every other night now, just 1/2mg. I can't sleep either. I now am on Paxil. It has been a few weeks and I just don't feel like myself anymore. I get jittery at times, and still have some other problems, but I hope it works well for me. I work at an elementary school as a custodian. I also have celiac disease. I recently have been having problems going places public, with my boyfriend. I feel dizzy and lightheaded in stores, and feel like I'm going to pass out. I feel like everyone looks at me too. It's very hard when we go somewhere to eat because I always feel that I need to pick a table that's by an exit, as well as sit somewhere where I can face a wall/window, and not be in the middle of a place. I get claustrophobic somewhat as well. It's very uncomfortable. I have a problem making eye contact with people, and get very shakey whenever I'm dealing with people. I also have phobias too. Very ironically- I am a germaphobic to an extent, as well as having a phobia about vomit/vomiting. I'm also afraid of frogs. Laugh, lol alot of people laugh when I tell them I'm afraid of frogs. Sorry this is long.

Dont wory bout the length of post
I am so glad you shared all with us
Might I suggesst talking to your doc and asking to take the ativan on a more regular basis
I really do think it might be of more help to you
Just my opinion

Glad to have you with us

STAY with us ...........LYN

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  _{^{DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum,Anxiety/Panic,Fibro & Other DD}}

For our newbies, or Peeps.................tell us a bit about yourselves.  We love the new members.

Your A & P Mods

Hello HW. I'm a 23yo female who's had OCD and HA since I was a kid. It started before school, maybe at the age of 4-5. I didn't realize it until many years later what it was. My mother passed away from cancer five years ago, and that is when my world changed. Mostly for the better. I'm very spiritual and a happy woman but for the past couple of years my health has been up and down. Unexplained sickness and I've started to think it was because of the negativity around me. Being stressed out from the OCD only made it worse. I changed my diet, my looks, my behavior, my outlook on life, my attitude, I work out a lot.. and it REALLY started to improve. 2007 was the greatest year. My health and anxiety was minimal. But this year has been tough. Anxiety is extremely high and I'm not sure why. Bad things have been happening (deaths, etc) but I keep a positive outlook. But I feel as though there's something small inside me that is eating away at me & I have no idea what it is. I want to cry at times. I want to scream. I want to run away. You'd think I was depressed by the way I act at times, but I'm really happy. I love life & those around me. I'm artistic, creative, inspired, hard-working woman. But I often feel an unknown sadness in me. As if I'm hiding something from the past that I THOUGHT I had overcome but really haven't.

/shrug

But thats me. Other than all that mess! I'm a really outgoing girl. I love music & going to shows. I'm a college graduate and at the moment helping my sister out, watching my niece 45+ hours a week. She's my world. :) I met the love of my life @ the age of 14 and I'm still with him. :) He's my gift from God. I love my family. I live in the South. I love to draw and paint.

I was never good at this stuff but I hope that was good enough!

Thanks for having me, btw.

Dear Syn,

That was great and it gives us a great snapshot of who you are.  Anxiety is a tough disorder and I am very glad to read that you have some wonderful things in your life, your niece, your boyfriend.

Congratulations on your graduation..........what  a great achievement for you, be proud of who you are. 

I am sure we can help you will your issues so please feel comfortable starting threads and talking to us. Also your support to the members is truly appreciated by all.

Again a warm welcome.
Kitt

Hi fellow survivors! I've posted a bit about myself in the depression forum,but like many people here,I have multiple problems.
I live in the UK,I was a registered psychiatric nurse,and have a Masters degree in Social work(can't use it anymore:never well for long enough.I talk of my qualifications not to brag about how great I am,but to remind myself of the potential I had once)
Life -long depression has become worse,as now really paralysing anxiety is a big factor,not to mention OCD rituals,that seem to get more and more complicated.How are others dealing with this kind of thing?What gets you through?We employ a lot of very dark humour in my house.It does help a bit to laugh at some of the weirder things I say and do when I'm in a "phase".
All good thoughts and best wishes to all of you.Every day you manage to get through is a TRIUMPH----congratulate yourselves.

Welcome to you
And thanks for the post
I am also a retired Nurse

I am so glad that you found us here and
hope you find HW the source of comfort
I and so many others do

Stay with us
......LYN

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  _{^{DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum,Anxiety/Panic,Fibro & Other DD}}

Not really new to healingwell but new to this particular forum

Age 26, M, live in Flagstaff, Arizona, married
Like to play baseball (yes real baseball), snowboard, fish, ride motorcycles, hang out with my wife and dogs, see a good movie, I work in accounting for the government.

My mom passed her anxiety to me I do believe (as well as her celiac genes) and it all really hit me Nov of 2004 or so. Got real sick for no reason. Had all sorts of tests done and Dr thought it to be Ulcerative colitis (took about 4 months for a dx). None of the meds helped and made me more depressed and more anxiety. Found out prob wasnt UC but microscopic colitis which is much less severe and went gluten and dairy free.

I get anxiety over my job, the house we are trying to pay off, sick aunt, had a very sick dog, and basically just feeling like something bad is going to happen.

I also like flowers, long walks on the beach, and a nice dinner...j/k... oh wait wrong post!

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Terps19

A warm HW and a/p family welcome
to all the new members here

Stay with us and find the support you need

LYN

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  _{^{DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum,Anxiety/Panic,Fibro & Other DD}}

Hey! I usually post on the Crohn's forum but, the last 6-8 months I have developed this new thing called "Anxiety".

So, a bit about me! I have two children ages 17 and 12 and a wonderful husband. I have very supportive sister, parents, and in-laws but unfortunatley they live 450 miles away. :( I love watching my daughter cheering (both at school and competitively) and my son playing football (he's obsessed) and basketball. I have a degree in Social Work but had to quit the best job in the world because of this terrible illnes (crohn's). I love spending time with my husband, reading, skiing, hiking and boating (which I have done VERY little of in the last 3 years. :(

I'm still very angry about this disease and "all it's lovely issues" and unpredictabliity(if that is even a word). So I get up each day not knowing what it will bring. I have learned so much information on this site and appreciate the support each and every person gives. Maybe one day I'll even be able say or do something that helps someone.

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Dx: 10/04 Crohn's, GERD, IBS,Osteporosis, Depression, Hypokelemia, "Crohn's" Arthritis, Migranes,

Good Morning Irish,

Thank you so much for sharing and you just said something that will validate for many that it is not unusual to feel angry at your disease.  My hubby has Crohns and he has been angry at it for years but that is his way of dealing with it.

He fights all the way but it is because he is angry and not going to let the Crohns rule.

I am so glad you feel comfortable here so please do keep talking with us.

Gentle Hugs
Kitt

Things have gone seriously wrong over the last few days;ended up ringing The Samaritans, only my love for my very special husband has kept me alive for the past 17 years.As I can't die,I have to endure a horrible half-life,sick with anxiety,and OCD rituals increasing.My very good doctor saw me this morning,and I'm to spend the next week taking enough Diazepam(is it called this in the US?) to make an elephant sleep for a week;had 30mg so far today,still up and running,obsessing,compulsive list making,e-mailing people who I thought were friends,but they can't cope with my illness,so they don't reply.
I feel useless,pointless,and that I'm using up oxygen that a worthwhile person could be using to live.I feel physically sick, not only with anxiety,but also at myself.
I have so much love and empathy to give to others in this situation,but I have no love for myself.
Sorry about this wretched post----I wanted to take part in this site in a positive way,and help others,but I feel useless,and lost in the dark.
Sorry if I've posted this in the wrong place.God.the apologising I'm doing at the moment--I feel to blame for everything.Hope I haven't dragged anyone down

Hey,

I'm so sorry that everything has gotten dark for you, but it sounds like you are doing the right things to keep yourself safe. Yes Diazapam (Valium family) is what it's called in the US and in Australia (where I live). It may help ease up some of the OCD rituals, but it can make you feel more depressed. I was on 60mg a day (not recommended) at one stage of my life and it didn't really slow me down either, just made me one really dangerous driver

Now obsessive list making, now that one I can relate to. I have OCD as well, and I have five diaries..when it gets bad I find myself scheduling the minutes in my day, and planning what I'm going to eat in a months time. Ridiculous, but it's the one ritual I allow.

Please don't feel hopeless, you are NOT a waste of oxygen. You are a smart, empathic, caring human being who is going through hades right now. You didn't ask for this, nor would you wish it on another. I think that a lot of people on this forum have been in the dark place that you are right now. I know I certainly have once or twice, but it ebbs and flows as with everything in life. Sometimes you just need to believe that things will improve, hold onto the things that you love, and fight for the life you want. Never give in.

Please know that we are here to listen and support.

Hugs,

Meg

 

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Dear Meg,Did I say wrong or inappropriate things?please tell me what i did wrong,so I can avoid it in the future.I don't want to upset anyone,and I want to do the right thing.Thank you.

Hi Dysthymia,

I'm so sorry I didn't make myself clear. I didn't mean to stress you out further, I know you are doing it rough right now. You didn't do anything "wrong" just make sure you observe this rule.

1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm).  Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.

 

You haven't upset anyone okay? Please keep posting, and if you want to discuss anything you can email me (the little envelope icon).

Gentle Hugs,

Meg

Dear Meg,
Thank you for your kind words;sorry about my brief previous post;I felt so worried that I'd said something wrong in my original post,that I started getting in a state,and didn't see the kind things you posted afterwards.Still concerned that I said something that might have upset anyone else on this forum:can you give me a hint of what I said wrong?
I'm starting to get repetitive now,so will stop.This terrible anxiety makes me feel I offend everyone.
Again,thanks for what you said---I do feel I'm among people who understand what I'm going through.I wish I could come across as my real self;I can actually be quite a fun person when I'm well,bizarre as that sounds!
If you could explain the moderating thing though......Obsessing again!
It's 3:30am here in England--hope you're sleeping better than I am.
Thanks and good wishes,
Dysthymia.

Hey,

I'm sorry you've got insomnia..that just makes everything so much worse. It's just gone midday where I live so I'm actaully planning lunch.

You are among people who understand here. I get so obsessive that I've said the wrong thing and upset someone..so don't worry you are certainly not alone! I just edited the little bit out of your post about potential self-harm, you're not being at all offensive, you're just posting how you feel.

So one less thing to obsess about okay? I hope you get some rest soon, try not to let yourself get overwhelmed. Living with OCD you spend so much time "in your head" that it's easy for things to get blown out of proportion. Try and look up and out of yourself. I try and distract myself with a book or a movie, anything to get out of my head when I'm in a high anxiety state.

Take care sweetie, you will getthrough this and we will be here to help you.

Many hugs from across the ocean,

Meg

Hi dysthymia

I am so sorry your having a bad time but you are not a worthless person, you are a person with OCD and anxiety which can be treated.  You are in the same situation as many others here so do let us help you.

Why don't you start a thread of your own.............just click on the new topic to start your own thread and that way everyone will see it.

We are here for you so know we care.

Hugs
KItt