While driving home tonight, I passed a guy I used to date, who had treated me very badly. We broke up several years ago, but he tried to keep the lines of interest open for a while after that. When I repeatedly refused to get reinvolved, he threatened blackmail. (I was his superior when we began our relationship.) I was shocked at his insane approach to rekindling a romance, immediately got professional support, and broke off all contact. The entire relationship had been horrifically dysfunctional, but fool that I was, I made excuses, wanting to believe in the false persona he projected rather than the monster that popped out more and more often.
He has a relative living just a block from me, so I guess I'm lucky I haven't crossed paths before this. Just seeing him has shaken me with fear and stirred up all kinds of imaginings that I'm too superstitiously spooked to want to list.
Help me get back to living in the moment, please! And pray for me to overcome this!