Posted 7/30/2008 1:32 PM (GMT -6)
Hello everyone. I was wondering if someone can help me know more about what is going on with me. I called and made an apointment today to see my doctor and will be seeing him tomarrow. But I would like to talk to people who are the same as me. I feel I've come down with some sort of anxiety/depression mix of things. Up till now If i got anxious or a little down, all it took was a good walk or a long drive, or a small shopping trip and I would be fine. But lately for the past month, I don't want to leave the house except to go to work (CNA in a nursing home). My job is high stess, of couse. But I love the work I do and the residents I care for. I don't get anxious or anything while there. While at work though, I can barely multitask. I am indecisive And as soon as I turn around I forget what it was I was doing or getting. That happens at home as well. When ever I get in my car I can picture the hood flying up and the engine exploding, or some disasterous accident. And i am jumpy and fearful that there is a car coming that I can't see. I notice that I am extremely sensive to long loud repetive noises, such as my son makes as he is nearby playing. Or the TV as my boyfriend has to have it blaring most of the time. So i try to leave the room and they both follow me, bringing the noise with them. I want to go for a walk so badly, but at the same time, i feel so tired and unmotivated enough for it. night time comes and i can't sleep, my boyfriend says I fidget all night long every 15 minutes, and my dreams are usually of real life situations of something I need to do, or something coming in the future like a family member visiting and there is not enough time in the day to ready the apartment. Ive had depression in the past, but it was easily treated and within a couple of months i was my old happy self again. problem was I was feeling good and would just not take my meds anymore. Anxiety is close by as my mom has it very badly as well as my sisters. I feel they are worse than me. This is the first time as a matter of fact that any of this has happened to me longer than a couple of days. these feelings have not gone away for a little over a month now and it's affecting, my cycle. I spent 3 days one week spotting, the following week for 3 days spotting, I filled 2 superplus tampons and 2 pads in less than an hour and a half the week after that for one day only an bled normal after that. spent last week not bleeding at all, now as of this morning, I am spotting, but a little more heavy than the other times. This was when i decided to call my doctor. I have dismissed pregnacy, due to all that has happend to me this last month, because i am aware that stress causes changes in that area, I will take one at my appointment if need be. Do you think this is anxiety or plain stress. I know i will have a clear answer tomarrow, but i would like to ease my mind for the day, and hopefully gain at least one good nights sleep.