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   Posted 8/2/2008 1:55 PM (GMT -7)   
right now I am going through the worst anxiety, I have ocd and anxiety. I have been on here before. It started two weeks ago. It is constant and I keep thinking I am dying and that my parents who are only 59 are going to die soon.  I also am osessing aboiut turning 40 in 3 years. I have these concerns before but they are now consuming me since I let the anxiety back into my life. It seems like I get into these rutts and they last 3 to 4 months and then I get better.  Will this happen again? Does my brain just get bored and finally give me peace? Just wondering and thanks for listening

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Date Joined Jul 2006
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   Posted 8/2/2008 7:17 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Curt,

Welcome back to HW, I am sorry you are going through another period of high anxiety. Can you think of a reason why this has come on again? I have OCD too, and sometimes a bad thought pattern gets triggered by something bad happening to someone I care about. My lovely sister in law just lost her mother suddenly and now I am fearful that my mother will die too. I have decided that I just need to let it go. Hard, but the only way to stay sane!

Curt, do you take any meds or get counselling for this? Sorry to be nosy, just want to help out! Please stay in touch with us, and if you need to talk about anything you are very welcome to email me (little blue envelope under my name)



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Date Joined Jun 2008
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   Posted 8/4/2008 1:26 AM (GMT -7)   
i wonder if i have ocd, i know what u mean by thoughts consuming you, actually im panicking about turning 24!! and its in a couple of months, i dunno why 24 is such a big deal, i got over that thought a while ago but i guess im just not going to make a fuss on my bday im just going to see it as another day and ignore the fact that im getting a yr older. And yeh ive had consuming obsessive thoughts for about almost 4 months now it has gotten better but im still thinking *arggh* its so bloody hard isnt it im a single mum going thru court proceedings to.. im just bout hanging on for dear life. its horrible. whats worse is im all alone with no one to express this stuff too. sometimes i wish i had someone to talk to in person who understood. all i can say is hang in there it is unbearable but if u know ur patterns thats good.. for me this is my first obsession thats lasted this long and thats consumed me so i dont know what comes next or when im truly going to be free from it, im scared coz sometimes it feels like ill have the obsession forever. and ive obsessed so much that its just been ingrained in my mind now so getting out of it is hard, still a little progress is better than nothing. i pray you will get better and i wish u every luck and i hope our suffering will end soon. xoxox by the way i think worrying about turning 40 is not that uncommon they say around that age it is common for people to get a mid life crises, or freak out so it will pass just have to ride it. have faith.

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Date Joined Jun 2008
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   Posted 8/4/2008 1:33 AM (GMT -7)   
actually can i ask, with me when i get the trigger n it something so terriying i cant seem to talk about it n im scared to go talk to somone because just dealing with the thought is an extreme in itself... does this happen to anyone else? coz i think maybe if i got help right when the obsession began maybe i could have avoided it obsessing all this time but i dunno, i try to work it out in my own mind first but that obviously just keep triggering other thoughts. its only coz there was something i read n i didnt understand it, it was the fear of the unknown n no matter how i thought i coulnt get an answer, i wonder if i jus spoke to someone would it have jus dissapeared. ???
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