Couple of Month's ago,I had an Abscess on L side of my private area (am saying private area since there are minors visiting the site)..1-1/2-2 Weeks later another cropped up only on the R side near my private area.The matter in both Abscesses was a light Cocoa color.
She and I were talking about the R Abscess earlier Today (she helped open,drain and doctor it).She told me it smelled like Cancer,so now I'm scared out of my mind I have Cancer.
Mind you she has Anxiety,Panic Disorder and was housebound Agoraphobic 4 Years (still has Agoraphobic tendencies),however doesn't have HA (Health Anxiety).
Sometimes I wonder if she says scary stuff to scare me when she knows I have HA..she'll say,"Sydnee you've came so far."or "Sydnee 1 Year ago you couldn't talk about spooky stuff or death."
It doesn't bother her if People who come over to her House don't call in advance to let her know they are coming and if someone asks her on short notice to go somewhere she can.I am the total opposite.
If/when she comes over she just comes and knocks catching me off guard instead of calling beforehand and giving me time to prepare.
Few Day's ago she called waking me from a dead sleep and asked if I wanted to go to Town with her Daughter.Said her Daughter would drop me off at the Courthouse as I need to research Land Records.
I was totally unprepared with notes on Land descriptions etc.I hadn't showered,dressed or eaten Breakfast yet.It's like she doesn't get it since this don't affect her..
I am really scared that I have some major form of killer Cancer..I'm scared to death of sickness and death,but she isn't..she wants to die..