I'm back to fighting my anxiety nearly all day every day for no reason that I can tell. In fact, I just had a really successful business meeting and a nice weekend outing, but I can't stop obsessing about worrisome things. First, there are unrealistic what-ifs about that nasty guy from my past who's been out of the picture for over two years. Then, my health anxiety is back - yesterday I went for a short hike with the dog and halfway through convinced myself that I was having an anaphylactic allergic reaction (I had my throat get tight although I was definitely breathing fine and talking to the dog, also the "sense of doom" and digestive cramps very briefly); I was freaked because I was out in the woods alone with no phone and no EpiPen. Mind you, I've been tested for *lots* allergies and nothing has ever registered, plus a web search (*don't* do it when your health anxiety is up!) indicates that anaphylaxis occurs from eating, ingesting, or injecting the allergen. I plan to have a followup appointment with my ENT doctor (allergist) to get her reassurance about *WHY* it wasn't anaphylaxis - she's *very* good about recognizing my anxiety and helping me to deal with it. On my business trip, I had several occasions while driving of the same sort of thing - the throat tightening - and I can't get back into that mindset where I completely trust that it's just my reflux.
But it's not just the health. This morning, I woke up feeling dread, without any particular focus for it at all. So anyway, I'm going through a bit of a struggle and just wanted to talk about it.
Post Edited (percycat) : 8/12/2008 8:01:38 PM (GMT-6)