My anxiety has been way out there, but I guess I am coming to the realization that this kind of stuff is just gonna happen whether I want it to or not or whether I think I can handle it. They've given me Atavan or Atavant or whatever...they've given me xanax. I don't like to take medication period, but when things get to really shaking I will take half of the .05 mg tablet of xanax which is a very low dose...but mind over matter...it works for me most of the time.
The doctor in charge is telling me now that I had some kind of interstitial lung disorder or something of that effect going on with me in recovery. I have never had such a drying out effect from anesthesia upon waking up. I stayed in the recovery room for more than six hours on what was supposed to be an outpatient event. I was to be out by 10:30 that morning so I could go to my daughter's volleyball game. I stayed five days, mainly he says due to an ILD...which before now I have had no symptoms of asthma or any related lung disorder. Has anyone ever come out of anesthesia with breathing problems...so dried up that you can't even gurgle? They were asking me...when I finally did wake up...what was going on??...they were all around me...just perplexed...and I was sooo dried up...I couldn't breathe or talk...they finally sauved my mouth and upper throat, and asked me if I had any ideas to relieve my dry mouth and throat and get me to breathing good again. They gave me a breathing treatment which I don't do albuterol very well...but nontheless they proceeded. I asked for sea salt...because it's a natural saliva producing element and that's all I felt like I needed, but whatever made my temp go up...I wonder too if the suspected overdose of anesthesia could have caused my spike in temp?
I didn't get scared until my temp rose over 104 and they decided to admit me for tachycardia (probably due to the albuterol). I think I had too much anesthesia administered to me, but then they've decided I must have had a prior cold or pneumonia or lung disorder and now when I google ILD I just come up with all kinds of nightmares.
But yes anxiety does get a grip on me sometimes, but mostly upon hyperventilation...just thinking about it so hard that I forget to breathe. I just don't want to worry about all of this, but then I think if I don't worry about it...it might just snag me. I want to be one step ahead of whatever I think is after me.