Ok. Here is the cold hard truth. If you don't get help you will NOT be there for your son. You may be physically there (if you are not admitted via emergency some night) but you will not be a good roll model, he will no something is wrong, you will be exhausted, mentally unstable, and could end up being an unfit mother. That is only if you refuse treatment and the eating disorder takes over your life or worse, kills you. So if it is hard to think about
being away from your son for 4 weeks, imagine how hard it would be for a lifetime. You ARE being there for your son by getting the treatment. You are being a responsible mother for getting healthy. Do they have visiting hours? Could you see him occassionaly? You can always check in via phone and letters and maybe even email or video chat. You would not be selfish doing this for you, you would be doing it for your family. I am sure it breaks your husbands heart to see you suffer with this eating disorder. Soon your sons too. Get treatment for THEM so they don't have to suffer anymore.
Remember the line from an old Nickelodean cartoon - "if you never go away, how can I miss you?" Your family will love you and miss you but in a good way. And then it will be SO much better when you get home. 4 weeks of pain vs. a lifetime of suffering.
I'm sorry if I am being harsh but that is the reality. I used to work with social services and corrections. I have seen first hand what this can do to families. Also, if you get more ill you could start imparting your eating disorder on your son. Trying to keep him skinny, thinking he is fat. Please don't let yourself get to that point. Do the treatment asap! You would be home by Christmas and maybe even thanksgiving! So you miss one halloween?
My dad missed a halloween of mine because of a bowel obstruction and in patient surgery. Would you have advised him to take me trick or treating and die of sepsis? Anorexia is just as much of a disease as one you can see on a cat scan. I had a blast that halloween with my mom and grandma. It was extra special. You CAN do this. Stop letting the disease make excuses for you and commit to going NO MATTER WHAT!
26 Year old married female law student (last year!!). Diagnosed w/ CD 4 years ago, IBS for over 10 years before that, which was probably the CD. I am sort of lactose intollerant too but can handle anything cultured and do well w/ lactose pills and lactaid. For crohns I am currently on Pentasa 4 pills/4x day and hysociamine prn. I also have bad acid reflux and have been on PPI's since age 13. I have been through prilosec, prevacid, and nexium. Currently I am on Protonix in the morning and Zantac at night. I also take a birth control pill to allow some fun in my life.