Jodes... welcome to our Healing Well family.... you are in good safe hands here.... this family of people who suffer together, rejoice in each other's accomplishments, listen to each others hurts and fears...and most of all , care about you unconditionally... will help you more than you can ever imagine.
It is such a huge comfort to me not be alone at 3 am. when I've had nightmares and can't sleep. I know my support is here... I don't feel so alone or overwhelmed... and when I do get overwhelmed, they are here to pick up the pieces and comfort, support me back to wellness again.
You are going through so much , please don't add feeling guilty about needing your meds or therapy again on top of everything else. My therapists used to say that guilt is a wasted emotion...wasted energy.Instead, feel proud of yourself for having the wisdom to go for help when you needed it... knowing yourself well enough to recognize the signs and being pro - active about it. Kuddos to you. That in itself is something to be proud of!!!!!!
Percycat is right... baby steps are the key. I would get a journal... and write down ONLY the good of each day. Somedays, you may have only one thing on your page... but when we quiet our souls long enough to think of the positive... we seem to be able to recognize God's Graces more easily every day.... I know how hard this is when all hell is breaking loose. There are so many things out of your control right now... which would increase anybody's anxiety level and depression, but quieting your mind long enough to think of a positive really helps you to re-focus ... you deserve that moment of peace it will bring you.
And Kitt is absolutely right... Concentrating on your breathing will really help.... Wise woman that Kitt.... so many wise people on this forum.... I'm so glad you've found us..l.
Please keep us posted ....
Keeping you in my prayers
51 yr.old retired RN,Crohn's D for last35 yrs..severe esophagitis, migraines,strictures,urethral stricture,depression,probable MS.,RLS, arthritis, PTSD ,general anxiety disorder.