Daisysmom.... honey... it sounds like you have been through the mill . Anger is perfectly normal when all hell's breaking loose... I often feel like if I start to let myself really feel the sadness and hurt, that I will start to cry and never be able to stop. Crying is ok. .... especially right now with everything you are going through.... I'd worry if you weren't crying! Go ahead and let it all out.... I'm on Celexa also and my doctor thinks it may be time to up the dose a wee bit.
I would start wondering about how you are doing if you suddenly shut down... can't go to work... can't sleep, can't eat... or just want to sleep all the time to avoid it all.
Do you have some support ? If you don't feel like you want to burden friends or family , journaling is a really healthy and great thing to be doing right now.... you just write your way through all your pain and worry.... It kept me same years ago when I was going through crisis after crisis.
Also, hon... I'm glad you came to HW.... you can come and vent, and unburden your heart here any time you need. There are soooo many wonderful people here.... family really.... who will carry you , support you, encourage you whenever you need. ... however long you need.
Know that I am keeping you in my prayers Daisy's mom .... keeping your loved ones in my heart and prayers also.
Stay strong... but don't be afraid to cry and let your emotion show. It might even help someone else in your family to let it all out... if they see that you are not afraid to .
Good luck..dear one.
51 yr.old retired RN,Crohn's D for last35 yrs..severe esophagitis, migraines,strictures,urethral stricture,depression,probable MS.,RLS, arthritis, PTSD ,general anxiety disorder.