Hi, welcome to HW. You are going through a tough spot. We have members who live with PTSD and they are taking it day to day. Even if you had no broken bones, you went though enormous trauma. Don't discount that. I walked away from a terrible car accident with nothing but a tiny scratch, but I carry it with me still.
I have not got a great deal of experinence with PTSD but as I said, some of our members do. I know that I suffered childhood trauma that follows me around. BUT! I have overcome the feelings associated with it. Honestly I don't know if it all goes away, but it gets easier and we can take steps to take care of our emotions.
I wish you all the best, welcome and know that we are here to listen and support.
Because I've had PTSD and anxiety disorder for many years, I can relate to what sounds like a clearcase of PTSD to me. The fallen water glass being a sudden noise - any sudden noise can make youjump out of your chair, stuff like that? I think sudden noises, or even someone sneaking up behindand surprising you (me, anyway) is related to the trauma you had because the accident was a suddenand unexpected (and seriously traumatic) event, so these noise things and sudden surprise thingscan be terrifying. I've just come to embrace it as part of who I am. If I jump in a crowd because ofsomething that frightens me suddenly and people joke about it or whatever, I just say, it's my PTSD.They can take me serious or not, but it's self-validating and acknowledging to myself that i've been through traumatic ordeals. If they're interested in hearing my story and I trust them to honor myfeelings, then I'll share my story. If I don't trust them with my story, I just leave it as "It's my PTSD."I take medication for anxiety, depression (which is pretty much gone, on a very low dose of Lexapro), panic attacks (which have become very short-lived as time has passed) and night terrors.Be kind to yourself and accept what happened to you as a very traumatic event. Your mind and bodyare just trying to protect you by being hypervigilent - this happens to a lot of people after trauma.It's okay to be who you are, however you are.
I've just got to add (because I've had bad experiences w/Psychiatrists and Psychologists, one Psychiatristwho horribly misdiagnosed and another who shot his wife, 7 year old and then killed himself (I had beensuicidal so this was not great for me), and the psychologist who sexually exploited me and messed withmy mind) -- please listen to your inner voice about if you feel comfortable with your Psychiatrist, Psychologist,and/or whomever else you plan to see. There is absolutely nothing wrong with going to a different doctorfor a second, third, fourth, etc. opinion.
Again, please be kind to yourself. I've been where you are and you will be okay. You are okay.
Hello and I am so glad you have found some people that have gone through your experience. Acknowledging that you know what is going on shows great strength. Making an appintment with a P-doc is wise and brave.
When you have PTSD you might find that you are anxious throughout the day. Calm breathing is a quick and portable tool thst you can used to "bring the volume down on some of those serious feelings.
I hope that you will find help through you P-doc and through talking to others on here that know where your coming from and what your going through.
Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*