I had a verbally abusive stepmother and I believed what she told me.
She would call me, stupid, fat, my father's "brat". She made me wear clothes I hated and she thought nothing of saying I ate like a pig in front of relatives, on Thanksgiving. She became my stepmother when I was 5. She could not wait until I moved out.
I got married at 17 years old after I graduated from High School. My self esteem was low and I eventually divorced my first husband. I have been through therapy and my therapist said I was like a daughter without a Mother.
I have learned to leave my childhood in the past. It is over and now I live in the present moment. I learned to know I have done good things but I still have trust issues and when something happens I feel like I knew it would end that way.
Trusting your therapist with your inner thoughts is difficult but just do it. The tears came as I cried for the childhood I had missed out on but now I let go and accept each day as it comes.
I will be here to support you and comfort you when you need me.