(K im not sure wether this is gona break slf harm rules tht why im not going in to detail ... sorry skit n lyn if it does :P)
Bout 3wks ago i had a minor attempt.... I believe this was caused in part by my meds. Since it happened i stopped taking them n ive felt great no stinkin thinkin no heart palpitations, Ive been doing really well. I ve some side effects like mind going blank.. difficulty sleeping bt put this down to withdrawal symptoms mainly.
Its the start of the uni yr here n all my housem8s are students, ive decided to quit my job in january. Everything feels like a fresh start for the first time in ages.. it feels like nething is possible.
And then my ex rang me and asked if we cpould meet up for a drink . Its prob so she can tell me tht she has found a new BF.. (i really dnt wana kno).. she a close friend and she helped me out alot wiv A/P but now shes the 1 it setting off. Its catch 22, if i dnt meet her im embittered BF if i do go then she'l set of anxiety n il start missing her alot again.
Wivout my meds its harder to handle this (quite minor) stress. So im gona takin meds again for abit.. Jus hope my behaviour doesn't go too erratic. Should i go to docs n ask for mood stabiliser never had ne experience wiv thm dnt kno wht thy do or if thy wud help.
Neways i jus needed to rant alittle
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