I cant say I completely understand your circumstance, but I know what you are going through. When it rains, it pours. But you have to remember that "your higher power" never gives you more then you can handle. I know it sounds corny and redundant, but i truly do believe that everything happens for a reason, and if we continue to search, we will find out why. I bet you that your friends husband is going to live these next 1-2 years to the very fullest!
I know how the panic in the morning feels. Esspecially the week before my you-know-what. Is your job too stressful in general or just because of the circumstances?
Hang in there (((HUGS)))
I've been with the same company for over 15yrs(laid off but came back), but they moved me to this position recently. I had no choice, it was either go to this dept or get laid off. I was laid off before for 2yrs so my severance is not built up. This position is production based and fast paced...VERY STRESSFUL!! There are many changes happening at my office right now, so hopefully something in a different dept will
open up soon. I'm just trying to hang on until that happens. I'm not sure I can move up if I go out on leave. They may hold it against me.
I can totally relate to the anxiety and panic around "tha time". I've been trying to chart it over the last few months and I see a spike in my symptoms around that time. Maybe perimenopause on top of my GAD and PTSD.
I have great benefits that will pay for short term disability and keep my job secure if I do intermittant leave (that is unpaid though). They have a program that gives 10 free counseling sessions and then if I need more, it woulld go under my medical/mental health benefits ($15-$25 co-pay). I am blessed to have great benefits and options in that area.
Diagnosed with UC in 2004-PTSD/Panic Disorder/Depression in 2007 & Fibromyalgia 2008
750mg colozal 3 pills 3x a day, .5mg clonazepam, 7.5mg Lexapro
1,000mg canasa suppositories (PM),
Prilosec-Not sure(Heartburn/GERD), Fish Oils
GNC Womens Active Formula Multi-vitamin
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