I just discovered this forum today and thought I'd give it a shot. I've checked out a few sites like these over the years, and while I've found people have similar symptoms that I have, it didn't seem like anyone was going through exactly what I was (although I know they're out there).
I've never discussed anything this personal to anyone I didn't know, so bear with me. I've always know I've had anxiety, but around high school (I'm 32 now) I started sufferung from IBS. I've alwas known the two were connected. I always blamed the IBS for ruining my life, and not allowing me to hold down jobs at times, etc. Starting this week, however, I've come to realize the anxiety is a bigger concern, even over the IBS (if you knew anything about me, you'd realize what a big deal it is for me to admit that). Both control my life, and as stated before they're both connected. I tried to start a new job this week. It was a work from home job, and I really thoght that would help our financial situation, as well as deal with my IBS. I've started getting panic attacks and just not wanting to deal with it. I've even developed new symptoms of nausea, and that's something I never used to do. I've taken different meds in the past to help, and the only thing I've found to help was Paroxentine (and it doesn't cure it). Right now I have no insurance, and no money to go to see a dr. with. I've realized for years it's a vicious cycle, and I have no idea how to break it. Even on the med, I'd get to where I simply didn't want to deal with anything, and couldn't handle the stress of work etc. I'm obviously not going to get any better without seeing a doctor, and I probably need to see a psychologist, but again all that takes insurance, and I can't get it under control long enough to do anything about it. Breathing exercises help, but not to the extent I need to work and cope. My wife tries to understand, but it stresses her out, which in turn makes it worse for me. We have a beautiful 7 year old little girl, and I just want to give her the life she deserves.
So if anyone has any advice about what to do trust me, I'm all ears, and have been trying to figure out what to do for some time.