Well, in my first "career" I was a legal consultant to the DOT here in Texas, and my employer was very, very patient with me. So I didn't lose anything there, and toward the end of it is when I started feeling better. It's a long story why, but basically feeling better coincided with quitting that gig and going into the family business.
Essentially, I'm in charge of the Dallas/Fort Worth area, which as you can probably guess is absolutely enormous. There are days in which I just cannot go where I need to go. Almost always I get done what I HAVE to get done, but I need to do more than that in order to make a solid living.
A few months ago I broke up with my girl, and it took five or six weeks to settle in. Since then I've kind of regressed, which has put a direct hit on my income. And the timing's not very good in this economy, obviously. This being a family business I won't get fired or anything, and I can't exactly walk away from it, either. In some ways I'm losing it, though.
How do I deal with it? Well, I just do the best I can. It's hard because I know I should be doing better and I have very, very high expectations of myself. That's a double-edged sword, of course. High expectations can motivate one to get better, but they can also cause a lot of guilt when they aren't realized. Still, I try to be kind to myself. When I fail to do that is when I have the worst problems, and that's been too often of late.
As long as I don't run out of money (I'm part of the family business but am essentially on my own up here, so it's really like being in business for myself), I should probably count my blessings. There are jobs I've had in the past I probably would've had to give up. I feel for people who do. I mean, I complain in my head about
having to go all the way to the West side of Fort Worth...what if I was a truck driver or something? I'd have to give that up for sure, I believe.
Maybe this isn't really appropriate to say with the economy the way it is, but I think there's a job out there for everyone. Mine is perfect for me. I don't have to punch a clock or anything of that nature, and I would imagine it's the cubicle type gigs that really get to people with anxiety. When I was a consultant I had this tiny little office, but I could come and go when I pleased. But there's something out there for everyone, although nothing is easy.